12/3/1017 A.D.
Dear Journal,
This has been a difficult night to say the least.
It started with the Tantabus escaping from my dreams into those of the element bearers. I had never imagined a scenario where somepony would discover the dark secret of my dreams, but now I guess I can’t deny what I created. Tia was very disappointed in me. She wouldn’t say anything but the look she gave me when I came home was enough to tell me how she felt about the situation.
When the Tantabus escaped and entered all the dreams in Ponyville things only seemed to be getting worse. I managed to connect the towns dreams together but because of the large magical strain it put on me I was forced to stand there and watch as a creature of my own creation tortured the dreams of an entire town of my subjects.
But all was not lost. When many of the ponies realised they were within a dream they took control and fought off the Tantabus even as it grew exponentially. At first I couldn’t understand why it was able to grow so powerful. Even the dreams of my little ponies shouldn’t have been strong enough for it to gain so much strength to keep fighting them off and attempt time after time to escape from the dream world.
It was then that with the help of the ponies of Ponyville and especially Twilight Sparkle and her friends I realised that the Tantabus was feeding off my own guilt to get stronger.
My friends helped me realise that I didn’t need the Tantabus to keep poisoning my dreams because they would help keep me in line. They could help me through my guilt. And so I relinquished my guilt and drew the Tantabus back into myself.
I have to say my dear journal that while this night was certainly a difficult one. I really do feel much better now that I can sleep without all these self inflicted bad dreams. Do I still feel guilty for everything I did as Nightmare Moon? Of course, but I can’t let that guilt overwhelm me. I have to become something better for my subjects. To do that I need to let go of the past and look to what I can do in the future to make their lives better.
Anyway my journal this is goodnight. I have some lovely dreams awaiting me in the coming day.
Princess Luna, Mistress of the Night.