Author's Update (Retirement for real this time) · 9:54pm Jun 1st, 2022
What's up, everyone. Figured I would make a post explaining a few things for everyone since I have had quite a few things happen in the past couple years and I'm constantly being asked why I'm not updating stories, and having them added to "Dead Story" bookshelves and such.
To be clear, it's not that I don't want to write anymore. To say that would be an objectively bold-faced lie. I want to write just as badly as I did before, but I simply lack the motivation nowadays. Keeping it brief is for the best since I don't wanna flood you guys with a bunch of drama and personal trauma that doesn't really concern anyone but myself and my closest friends so I'll leave it at this:
1. My marriage ended in 2020 due to my spouse constantly cheating on me, taking advantage of me financially, and just being a generally awful person that my friend group had tried to warn me about in vain numerous times. The happy life I thought I was living was a lie, to put it simply, and I was betrayed heavily by someone I trusted more than anyone else.
2. I lost two jobs I greatly enjoyed due to COVID-19, and nothing I've gotten since has come close to giving me the level of enjoyment that those did. Working eight hours now feels like a trudge and something I dread, rather than a time I looked forward to like before.
3. I have depression because of the prior two events, and it's something I am not used to.
I've made some mistakes. I have people who commissioned me that I am still paying back, and those debts will absolutely be repaid. If for some reason I owe you money and did not reach out to return it, please DM me so that I can get that sent back to you as well, because I want to set that right.
But in the end, I really didn't know if I'd be writing anymore. It was tough to say, or decide. I enjoy collaborating with my friend MissytheAngle, and I hope to finish what stories I do have incomplete with her assistance. But after that I will take my final leave from writing and focus on Fimfiction only for reading and communicating with people.
To all the people who I have wronged in my time here, I apologize. Ten years is a long time to be on a site and I made a lot of mistakes as I was growing up and turning into the person I am today. I'm sorry for those mistakes. To those friends I've had that are still here, I love you guys so much and have always appreciated the support. I really hope you guys have a great rest of 2022, and we'll see where the year takes me as well.
Peace, y'all.
Hugs. Best of luck with the depression and the personal and global disasters of life. I absolutely know how fucking frustrating anhedonia is. You're probably not looking for advice, but beyond the usual depression meds, you might try ADHD meds or (carefully) methamphetamine. They help the brain utilize more dopamine, which at an actual medicinal dose versus just getting high, it's amazing how much easier it is to focus on stuff you want to focus on. There's still the executive dysfunction angle but that's another story for another day. Best of luck with everything and if you ever feel like writing again, please don't be afraid to.
See you on the discord server, space cowboy
Hey, you do whatever you need. Regardless of if you want to write again someday or not, I just hope you can get back to a better place mentally.
I'm so sorry to hear that. It's a shame but you must do what's best for you. I wish you nothing but happiness and fulfillment. Much love and I hope things get better for you. 👊
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well i hate to see you go, but who knows you might keep coming around and keeping an eye around.
I've been an admirer of your work since 2017 when I was getting started writing. I'm sad that you'll be retiring, but I'm happy that you're turning your life around. Good luck to you dude.
I'm always here if you need to talk, LS.
I'm sorry for your troubles. Thank you for what you put into the community while you were here.
*hugs*
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Update for you sweethearts :)
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Glad to hear you're in a better place :)