Lost a best friend this week. · 8:40am May 15th, 2022
... I mean, we had it coming.
Our relationship has been growing increasingly toxic as of late. He would always be approaching me for help with his emotional problems (sometimes contacting me in the middle of the night) and I would be there to provide comfort and reassurance the best I could. But when I would be the one approaching him with my anxiety issues, he would shrug me off with a, "That's nothing. Don't worry about it."
I've ignored countless red flags. He would constantly poke fun at my social anxiety, to the point of getting increasingly hurtful with his jokes and remarks. I said nothing. He would only contact me when he needed something, and would blatantly ignore me when I would try to get his attention face-to-face.
I've made countless excuses on his behalf. I've always reasoned with, "no one's perfect, right?" and things like, "He just has problems to deal with". Well, I do too, okay? The only difference between us is that I have to be the one who silently deals with both of our problems at the same time, just so both of us can be happy.
I know, we lacked proper communication. I was too much of a doormat to let him know how he was indirectly hurting me, through all his hurtful jokes I had to smile through, and through all the times he would shrug off my problems and force me to listen to his own. I hate it.
One day was too much for me to take. I was in the middle of an anxiety attack when we were out with our friends and he chose that precise moment to take another shot at me in the hopes of making our friends laugh. I snapped, and proceeded to slap him across the face.
He looked stunned for a moment, before returning the slap in equal measure, following it up with a, "Never do that to me again."
I then expressed how he's been pushing me to the limit, and how it's been hurting me. He shrugged me off before resuming to chat with one of our friends like nothing happened.
As of present, I feel kind of empty. Somewhere in between the good kind and bad kind. I would appreciate someone to talk to right now.
My other friend was very supportive about it all. She listened to me as I poured out everything in pure detail, and sent me pony vids to cheer me up. She's nice.
Well that sucks is all I can say unless you respond to me
I wish you luck and strength to overcome this
So sorry you had to go through all that!
~Gives your cheek healing smooches~
I'm glad you dropped such scum, I hope the others showed some ounce of support for you as well.
Forget this mf! I’d block him right now
You made the right decision in losing that friend. I know it hurts, but you're ultimately better off with people who always metaphorically take without giving anything back in return.
And remember, we're always here for you at Fimfiction. Because friendship is magic.
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It's going to take a while, but healing will come. Thank you for your kind words.
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D'awww, thanks...
Well, the only friend of mine who showed direct support was the girl I mentioned. But even then, I'm immensely grateful for her kindness. And thank you too, Kobe.
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Blocked him on all socials I know of, I just needed space.
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Thank you so much, Kelduo. I know we don't interact much as of late, life has been hectic, is all. But I'm grateful for you taking the time to reach out. I needed to hear that. Friendship truly is Magic, after all.
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Always here for ya :3
~Mwah for you~
A bit slow on the draw, but I’m sorry to hear that. Hope you get better. You always have friends on this site you can talk to as well if need be. Hope you feel better soon! That guy was just a sack-o’-shit
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I am feeling slightly better, thanks. I just needed time to process it all.