Life Update · 6:21am Apr 25th, 2022
Hey all,
It’s been a long time since I’ve done anything here. I wish I could say that it’s because I’m too busy doing more important things, but really I’ve stopped caring about most things horse-related for the better part of over a year.
I still read some stuff from time to time, whenever I can will myself to read anything. I haven’t made much of an effort to continue any of my current projects, so it seems like they will continue their indefinite hiatus for the near future until I get bored enough to change that.
This blog is for anyone who cares enough about me to find out what’s been going on in my life, though I think you’ll find it to be significantly more boring otherwise. This blog also serves as a time capsule to myself so I can look back on it in the future to see how different I was. I do that now sometimes. It’s interesting how much someone can change over the course of a small amount of time.
I should graduate with my degree in aerospace engineering by fall of 2023, provided everything goes according to plan. I turned 23 this month, and I keep thinking about death again. In the existentialist way, not the depressed way.
I’m going to Europe this summer with my girlfriend and her family. This will be the first summer I’ve had off since 2017, when I first enrolled in college. It shouldn’t have taken me more than 4 years to get this degree, but I’m lucky to even be enrolled still at this point that I’m not going to complain.
I will be working for the first time this summer. I haven’t landed any internships yet. I keep telling myself that it’s because I’m not trying hard enough, but I’m not sure I have enough skills in my repertoire to be a very competitive applicant as of now. I have a little coding experience and some excel knowledge, but no certifications or specialties that make me stand out. I need to work on that.
I plan on getting an apartment for just myself and no roommates by the end of this year. It will be the first time I’ve ever been alone alone. I like the feeling of being independent. I haven’t gotten to experience that sensation since starting college for the first time.
I think the older I get, the less ready I feel to be an adult. Legally speaking I guess I am, but with me soon being employed and going on my second year of a committed relationship, the pressure is mounting. I don’t think it’s anything I can’t handle really, but it kind of reminds me of being scared of heights but only being afraid when someone tells you not to look down.
I’m always looking down now, realizing my capacity for failure exists always to some degree.
So yeah, I’m getting a job this summer. No cushiony gig at Lockheed Martin or NASA, just something to put on the resume to let everyone know I’m not just a leech who goes to college.
I’ll be done with this semester in the first week of May, then I can start gaming a little before my girlfriend visits me for about 2 and a half weeks. That’s something I’m looking forward to greatly.
This got a little long, but I felt like writing it all down so I can refer someone to it in the off chance another acquaintance of mine exchanges pleasantries with me and tries to catch up what’s going on in my life.
Hope you guys are doing well too. Or at least as well as you could be doing.
I’m still here. Feel free to shoot me a message if you want, although don’t expect anything immediate.
You gotta continue on that sigma jack ripper grind set and become successful and have good times
Not gonna deny, was randomly thinking about you on a whim the other day, bud! I was casually thinking about my buddies on here and you popped up as "Haven't heard from him in a good minute!". Glad to hear you're doing great!
Hey, been a while, dude! Good to hear that things are going in a positive direction for you. Every time I pass my editing list and get a glance at the story I edited for you I wonder where you've been. Guess now we know. Fingers crossed things keep going well!
Keep being awesome, and take as long as you need. I remember when I was new, you were so kind to me, and that isn't something I'll ever forget
Best of luck with all that! Remember that if you have to take breaks or dial back some things, that's better than trying to do too much and holding it all in until it suddenly explodes. Source: personal experience
But I believe in you! Also, I have a really chill brony friend who works at Lockheed Martin in Lancaster / Palmdale who I would be happy to put you in contact with!
You're cool Jack :)
okay so I'm not trying to be a dick but if you really don't care about horse things why are you still a moderator on here then
Yeah, I can relate to a fair bit of this, especially when I was of a similar age. Contemplating life and death, the future, where I'll be and what I'll do, the pressure, whether it'll even be worth it or not, why I feel less like an adult the older I get. I've been there, dude. Really.
Trust me when I say this, it'll get better and easier as things go along. You'll stop caring so much about the little things that dragged you down and start seeing more of the big picture. You'll realize that what you thought was an adult when you were a kid is nothing more a child's assumption, and adults are just kids that are wiser and have more responsibility. You'll realize that success comes in many, MANY flavors, and it really comes down to the individual on how you personally define it. You'll realize fads come and go, but what you truly enjoy, even if you try to deny it at face value, won't ever really go away.
You'll be alright, my dude. Just keep moving forward, don't forget to enjoy the little things in life, and never be ashamed of who you are and what you like to do.