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How It Started vs How It's Going · 1:08pm Jan 1st, 2022
How it started: trying to understand why I procrastinate so much
How it's going: while I've read about it on Wikipedia before, independently coming to the conclusion that consciousness is an emergent property and I'm a self-aware complex feedback system. I'm literally just a shitposting differential equation.
That's pretty poggers but also pretty terrifying. But hey, existence is a fractal, and I think poggers but pretty terrifying sums up the whole of the human experience pretty well. Life is strange, that's for sure.
I love you all, stay beautiful my friends, and if there's a lesson to pull from this for the new year, it's that shit may suck but we can make it better.
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Aren't we all?
Existence is fascinating and terrifying, especially when you see how your entire subjectivity was an unintended outcome. Let's hope the new year is better than the old one.
everything's pretty terrifying right now, so what's one more match on the fire? :')
AI - I knew it!
jk, happy new year.
This is a beautiful and accurate summary of consciousness.
I think what helps me is seeing it as "agency". It's always easier to do things for others: going to work to not stress or burden your coworkers, cleaning after yourself, asking on their behalf for that refill of iced tea, etc. For whatever reason, with us procrastinators, our self-agency sucks. Doing it for 'yourself'? "Oh then I can slack off. Who cares about that asshole? There's no consequences."
I think that's why so many people have success with planners, reminders, support groups and systems of accountability because it's not them they're letting down. It's the thing they constructed or the people they have to talk to about all of this. Even if it's just "new chapter every Tuesday!"
At the end of the day though, we are just overtrained great apes with anxiety. So what's all this shit matter? I guess we just gotta laugh and not let down the apes we're entertaining around the glowy screens because that gives us meaning or something?
Oh God I just realized this means that our identity is just our brain's original character
Which means otherkin are just brain fursonas.
Fuck I guess this is the price of eating from the tree of knowledge fucking brain fursonas
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Turns out me becoming an absurdist a few years ago was just a preclude to me realizing I don't even fucking exist
Be careful mixing the thing for its description. Differential equations might be a good language for describing the world, but that doesn't make the world a differential equation.
The difference has to do with structure, meaning things like proximity and flexibility. Differential equations can describe many more things than just the world; two equations that look very similar as equations can look very different when interpreted as aspects of the world.
There's also a transformation you need to do to see a differential equation as an aspect of the universe. Describing that transformation requires you to provide additional information, and that information isn't itself a differential equation. All of these things are strong indications that there's something more going on.
Welcome to the world of existentialism.
I can't argue.
it checks out