Kinda rambly but... · 9:38pm Nov 2nd, 2021
For months now, it's been hard to write stories. Oh, I start plenty, work on several chapters at a time, slowly build to completion projects. I engage with close friends, try to find the joy in doing what I love to do the most... but it's been hard dealing with the void that was created a few months ago.
Yeah, that uh, hit me hard. Not only with my own rant, but also by the reactions (earned and otherwise) of others. So, this is really not about the whole situation going on then, I'm not placing blame on anyone specific, just the situation then and now.
Being a part of this community has been a balm for me for years. Because I've seen the good of it, and I fed off of the energy, camaraderie, passion and love we all have for this series, old and new. So, the aftermath really left me drained of... well, almost all of it.
There's a saying about writing professionally. It's said that when you're a writer you have to be able to acknowledge that your story is the best thing you've ever written, and also concurrently the worst thing you've ever written. Essentially: Get a thick skin because haters gonna hate and it does mean something, but not as much as you might think.
Still, when the 'oomph' of your passion is taken out of your soul, it's hard to get back up.
EFNW helped a lot. I missed seeing a lot of people. I missed seeing Aquaman, and I missed seeing Jaxie. I missed Petrichord, and Flashgen, and Mono, and so many others that I got to see and talk to. It was... really good. Really fucking good to be with people that had influenced me and befriended me. It was nice to meet new people in person... and even get together with an old friend from college.
I missed seeing Pascoite and Pen Stroke, and PaulAsaran and Oso and many others. But I got to ride with IAM and Scampy and Gadot, and we had dinner together with other friends which was awesome. I got to rideshare with RBDash47 and Bad Horse to the airport.
Hell, I even got to chat with FanofMostEverything for a bit while we walked to my recreation of the traditional Fogo De Chao experience for the writing gang.
I'm also glad I saw some specific people scurry away when they spotted me.
EFNW was what a lot of us needed, I think. To remind us not only that others are really human, but also that we all share a passion. Honestly, I can't even begin to remember all the people that went out of their way, knowingly and otherwise to make me feel welcome as part of the community. But even after that, it was hard to weave words together. I've started blogs over and over just trying to get stuff out of my head, and had to delete them because they became rants at people rather than working through my problem.
I feel like this latest chapter of Isekai—although it is short, and not my best work—is my best chapter to get back on my feet writing. I've been feeding my imagination with The Owl House, Amphibia, MLP the New Generation Movie, Maya and the Three, and Free Guy, and waiting for the Hilda movie, and words have just been piling up and ready to explode but this... sense of despondency kept holding me back from actually telling a story.
It's funny that it was the Day of the Dead that sparked my dying embers back to life. But it did... and I'm fanning the flames to write more.
Anyway, I know you guys are not here to read me being... whatever this is. Let's get back to ponies.
I'm here to hear your words, whatever they may be. If this is what you need to get off your chest that's a-ok here.
Glad you enjoyed EFNW n_n
It was great seeing you again at EFNW, D.
I agree that it was something we all needed; to feel connected again, no matter how often we may read a post or chat with someone one line. It means more when you see a smile or hear a laugh or see a reaction in person.
This fandom, our community, the friends I’ve made mean a great deal to me, I was in the military for many years and, while I shared a camaraderie with people I served with, it was not what I’ve found here. Here, I have a home. People who care about me and share a bond of friendship and love.
And if you want to ramble or talk, I’m here to listen, any time.
Very inspiring. But... who scurried off?
Glad to hear you're rekindling your interest.
Still wish we'd gotten to talk more at Fogo de Chão.
I'm still kicking myself for completely brain farting and missing the last Whinny City before covid.
I'm looking so forward to next years that I might just break out into spontaneous song and dance.
Seeing you at EFNW was delightful, we'll definitely all have to meet up again at whatever the next con we're at is 🙏
I take issue with this actually.
I'm here for the person writing the stories moreso than just the content, and I know I'm not the only one. Part of supporting a creator, and especially a creator who's a good friend, is listening to their struggles as much as their stories. You're allowed to feel what you feel and not have to hide it, and honestly I'd rather hear from you, good or bad, than just have radio silence. I wanna know how my friend's doing, y'know?
I was sorry to miss the convention, but I'm glad you met up with all and sundry. Its good to see you feeling better.
Bro, it's 100% cool to be sad and to ask for help. It's also completely understandable that you didn't want to burden anyone. Frankly... I've been a bit worried about you. You definitely seemed down, and I noticed you'd slowed down. I don't like to be a busybody, or make assumptions, so I didn't prod you about it, but...
I'm glad EFNW was so good for you, man. And if you ever need help, me and plenty of others are here to offer it. You keep on keeping on, and I look forward to whatever
bullshitwriting you got up your sleeve.Peace.
I read and hear what you're saying, Wanderer. *Hugs*
I'm glad it sounds like things are improving for you, and good luck. :)
You've been a direct inspiration for me for a long time, TSC was one of the first fics I ever read, only to came before it, those being FoE and Past Sins.
A big part of the reason I fell in love with this fanbase so much was directly inspired by you, weird as it sounds. You brought me into reading on this site, which in turn led to me searching for other stories, which in turn led to me creating an account, and on and on, spiralling until I'm now all of a sudden writing here.
And I mostly have you to thank for that.
I won't rehash what's already been said involving it being good to hear you're doing well, and that it's good to feel.
Just want to say thank you, is all.
I've met a lot of lifetime friends as a result of being in this fanbase, and as I've said before, you're the one that really sucked me in here.
So thank you.
Glad to see you back on your feet!
Onwards with thanks.
Amazing how a little bit of a diversion into something familiar and comfy can really kick you into gear again, isn't it?
🙏
Scampy beat me to it, but I'll repeat and modulate the sentiment. Those who chose to read the blog are here to read what you chose to share. The baseline interest is ponies, and it intersects with your writing and with you as a person.
You are fortunate to have colleagues whom you can call friends, to engage with and find prolonged mutual interest, and even to meet intentionally. Good that they can inspire you, and you them. Not that I would know.
> Anyway, I know you guys are not here to read me being... whatever this is. Let's get back to ponies.
My Little Pony the New Generation review/opinion post when?
Jokes aside, solid post, relatable, too, even if I can't relate to such an experience myself.
Te quiero!
"Until the wheels fall off."
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Glad to hear your doing better do. Please do take care of yourself.
You do what you need to do. That's all we can ask. Whether you're in the mood or not, your life comes first, my friend.
Hopefully I'll get a chance to finally meet you in person next year!