I've got some things to say · 2:58am Aug 13th, 2021
Hello,
I know some of you are wondering what stupid thing I'm announcing today. Some of you, I expect, don't remember who I am or why my blogs are appearing in your feed. But I've been doing a lot of thinking lately, and I've got a lot of things to say. Tonight is the clearest my head has been in a long time, so I feel I just need to put this out there now.
For a long time now, I've been feeling tired, anxious, and just overall burned out. Which is interesting, seeing as I don't actually do anything to tire from. But I came to a realization today. I haven't been able to relax. Even when I sit down and try to calm myself, my mind is always racing, wondering when I have to get something done, or what will "x" think if I do this? And I can't do it anymore. Maybe I'll be back to my anxious, crazed self in the morning, but for now, I just have to get this off my chest and off my mind.
But that's enough of the journal entry. You want to know why you should care. Or you've already stopped reading. Regardless:
I'm going to let the structure of my release schedule collapse a bit. I know many of you are still waiting patiently for me to get back to work and start releasing chapters again. I've got bad news for you, though. I don't think it'll be happening in August. It took me almost seven months to write the original DoaQ, and in almost a month since I've started working on rewrites, I'm up to chapter 30. I still don't have prereaders or editors, but I'll burn that bridge when I get to it.
What I'm trying to say is that I'm done stressing about it. I forgot the most important rule of wanting to write. I forgot that I was supposed to enjoy it. So I'll be taking a little break in an attempt to get my head on straight. This might push back my return even later, but it's something that I feel I really need to do. And hopefully, when I'm feeling better, my writing pace can pick back up, too.
I'm not leaving the site. I'm not just going to fade away into the aether. I'm still alive and I'm still working. I just need some time to clear my head. I'm sorry if this causes issues for you, but it's something I need to do. If you have questions or comments or concerns, feel free to drop them in the comments below or DM me. I promise I don't bite, and I really do love hearing whatever you guys have to say. I read all the comments, I promise.
It feels pretty nice to get this all off my chest, even if nobody actually reads these.
Thanks, and I hope you all have a great day,
Arkane12
It's all good.
It's not easy to admit that something you're supposed to enjoy is stressing you out. The fact that you've recognized it b4 you burned yourself out is a good thing. Now you can take a step back and find the pace that suits you best. And don't worry we'll be here for you when you get back.
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I appreciate the concern. For what it's worth, the hard part of the rewrites is the motivation to actually sit down and write. I'm actually enjoying the story far more than the original. But thanks. Seriously. It's good to know that I've still got some people on my side.
Take your time I know what the burden of being stressed out is like and just kick back and relax for a bit
Well, good! It's definitely not worth doing something for fun if it's actually just stressing you out.
Take your time, relax and write at your own pace, we'll be here for you when you get back, good on you for recognizing signs of burnout before it happened, hope you're doing fine.
Ps. Sorry for gramma it's six am and I have yet to have my morning coffee, and that's excluding the fact that English isn't my native language