Nervous a bit (WARNING: mini vent) · 6:26pm Aug 5th, 2021
Registered for 10th grade just a couple days ago and I'm feeling semi-unconfident about it. I was in online school for my freshman year and worse my schedule this year is all over the place and it's a REALLY big school compared to what I used to go to, and there's so many halls and students and it's just really overwhelming.
Also the things I picked out for this year are a bit more feminine than what I've done before, and I did go thru a whole transgender crisis thing, but I came out more male than ever, but I'm just really feminine inside, and my parents don't really get that and say I'll be teased for it.
Plus I have something called gynecomastia going on, which is really common in boys my age, but basically it just means I have slight "man-boobs" and my dad is kinda bodyshaming me about it saying I need to work out more to make myself look more like a man, and it's so frustrating. I'm comfortable about how I look, but my dad just makes things worse every time and it's just UGHHH, I keep telling him to knock it off but he has such a thick skull he refuses to listen to anyone and I HATE IT SO MUCHH... And to make matters worse he's constantly spending money and making us go near broke because he hardly cares much for us and focuses more on himself, which is an absolute pain in the butte.
And then this year for 10th grade I have to go to Seminary for church and it's an off campus thing so I have to walk ALL THE WAY ACROSS THE SCHOOL GROUNDS and across the 2 lane street, which is overall a good 1/2 mile and I'm not exactly good at maneuvering anywhere, so yeahp.
ANYWAYS,
Ya'll stay awesome and I'll see ya around, love ya'll!
