So someone has done a live reading of my first fanfiction and...it drove me to tears. · 4:20pm Jul 16th, 2021
About 5 days or 6, a user commented a link in my story "A late night home" and it was a youtube link. The youtube redirected me to this person-which the link is here-and watched the screen load up. The first thing I saw was the cover I choose and the title of the work. I clapped my hand over my mouth as I reeled in the unlikely moment. I was beyond shocked. So I clicked and listened. I cringed and laugh at all the mistakes I made when I was 3 years younger and smiled as I remember all the memories leading up to that one fanfic. I wept when they read the clop scenes and emotional parts I wanted to try to write and get it right. I ended up watching the video for 5 times and it just...made me happy in a tearjerking way. After my terrible 2020 where I lost my Great grandma, friend, aunt, and ex-lover. I am in a self healing journey to get back to what I originally wanted to do: Make video games and being financial sufficient. I started fanfictions as an outlet for my life and as a way to learn how to communicate with people better and tell stories. Games nowadays are strongly story based and the Geddy Lee in me tells me to learn everything about it. From design and it's aspects, writing, to programming and music. I did all of these things just to make people happy so that they can never go through the struggles that I-a Autistic man who holds down his thoughts to not be a nuisance to the world-would have to go through. It changed steadily to a long sticking reaction then just happiness. I make things for people to feel or think about when they are in deep thought or muttering and drawing cross references. I make things that may be horrible and may feel horrible because I have experienced it. I have lived in a real life Netorare situation. I have lived through some sorts of horror. I have lived to know what it's like to not be vocal about my own wants and pain. I ended taking a break from fimfiction because I wanted to make a musical album to heal from all the things I lost in recent memory. So I am not dead, I am just...healing. To my fans who have tolerated my work and has read my attempts to make something different then usual format on here, I thank from the bottom of my soul for you generous kindness. Sphere Heart, you made this quiet giant cry with tears of happiness. Thank for liking my work and going so far as to make a recording. I still cry because...I thought I reached no one.
So this is what you meant Toby when we talked that day..
I wonder if this is what you meant?
Congrats!