Behind the story: Bag of Tricks

So... how do I start this? I feel like I've lost something that had always been a big part of my writing. My own confidence. A lot of writers might say this is normal, but I remember it being a lot easier when I was younger. Now that I'm older, and more mature, it's like all those mistakes of my past are biting me in the flank. And so for awhile, I struggled to write anything. Couldn't do it. Just stared at the page wondering what on earth was wrong.

I found a lovely support group, "Bean's Writing Server"' for Writers like me. Writers who struggle to write, but still WANT to write for themselves and others. First, and foremost when I first made my account back in 2017, I had no idea what I was doing. I started out with a porn fic (which is no longer on the site) and eventually tried writing a simple romance, but we aren't here to talk about the past.

No.

We're here to talk about NOW.

Now I have a wonderful bf who loves me.
A home where I feel safe
A job where I'm valued

So it's like why couldn't I write?

Bag of Tricks resonates with me because I DO struggle with self doubt, and often I wonder if there's a cure. But the more I realize, the cure is one I already know. I just have to write. Doesn't matter what it is, I just need to do it. Writing Bag of Tricks made me cry, because I feel like Trixie at times. I often feel I'm not good enough for all the wonderful things that I've gained. I don't know why I constantly seem to torture myself, but it is something that I'm working on and I promise with time and dedication I will get better. If you like Trixie or like a emotional piece that might make you cry or just make you feel, you should totally read Bag of Tricks.

It may be short

It may not be a Masterpiece

but it's something to tide you over for the next big thing I'm planning.