Self-Discovery and Coming Out · 1:53pm Jun 24th, 2021
Hello, everyone. It's Devonus again, writing after a break... a big one, and long at that. I... I apologise, to you all... to friends, the few readers... to everyone. Especially to the few friends I left almost without notice, and who though they don't know it, mean the whole world to me, each and every one...
But... there is a reason I'm writing this now, one... one besides just a "coming back" blog...
It is an important announcement for me, and... I'm not sure why I'm doing it now, but I felt the need to. Maybe it's too late, maybe too soon, but ultimately, it doesn't really matter... for me, the time is as good as ever.
For the last several months I've been struggling a lot with myself. It turned out that upon just vaguely deeper efforts at self-discovery, things... stopped fitting. So I explored more, deeper and deeper, more thoroughly. I have that natural curiosity within me, and a sense that even if certain things hurt, they are hard to let go of.
It's so unique sometimes to find yourself anew and solve the mystery of the self. It's something.... hard to describe, at least for me it is; a weird feeling of not necessarily bliss, but all-encompassing calmness... like floating on the surface of an infinitely calm and soft ocean, without any risk of sinking. Like the time has stopped and all danger vanished.... a calm and blissful relaxation, without urgency of any kind.
This may come as a shock to some of you, while others have seen me grow closer and closer to self-discovery.
I'm sorry if anything I'm about to say evokes a sense of hostility or rejection, however it is just as important for me to say, for it concerns the very essence of who I am, really.
I am a trans girl, and everything fits so much better this way. I no longer feel as if I'm watching the real world through some kind of filter, I no longer have to focus and struggle to feel the sense of the "self"; that this person whose body I'm inhabiting is the very same as the consciousness thinking about it all in that moment.
Most of the time it comes naturally now.
Things just suddenly make sense, things that have dotted my life more or less frequently for as long as I can remember....
I... have known how it is for a while now... but I haven't been sure how to say it.
It is a little more complicated than that, but none of these quirks change one thing... that I am a woman, and it'd be amazing if I could be treated just as so. 
I love you all, my friends. I hope this won't come as too much of a shock, and maybe some of you have even seen it coming.
Congrats to you
I'm so proud of you for this journey of self-discovery you've undertaken! It's hard enough to admit something like this to others, let alone discover it for oneself.
I'm just glad you could find your truest self and be happier for it, may you continue to forge this bright path onwards into your future.
Congrats! Girl!
I really like the design of the pony flag. Nice calm colors and soft pastels. I vibe.
Well this is pride month, so I guess a lot of people are coming out
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Thank you so much!
It means a lot to me, it truly does.
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It's a cross between the flag of Equestria and the transgeder flag...
And thank you a lot too, of course!
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Thank you, a lot.... it truly means more than a bit to be accepted like this, and.... this may have been the most important announcement in my life....
Thank you so much, truly.... I'm not even fully sure how to word what I feel about it all....
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Thank you, friend... it means a lot, you know? And coming from you too....
Thank you... for everything....
I feel a lot better having come out on this site.... however it may sound, it.... it is half of my life, FimFiction.... half mylife, and everyone truly close for me, really.... I knew it would be an important step, and it feels more than amazing to be able to finally be me here.
Thank you, River, a lot.... for the warm words, for everything.... it's hard to word all I feel...
I'm very thankful to you all for being accepted like this.
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Yes... I just wanted to wait until my family knows too, and now they do....
This site is half my life for me, you know...? For better or worse....
Half my life, and everyone truly close....
I'm just happy I can still be friends with you all, and it's all alright. Thank you!
You go, girl!
