My current situation · 8:49pm Dec 23rd, 2020
And this is a good update for once lol
so I've been doing pretty good lately all the stuff I've complained about and have said are still problems for me but I'm getting better at them. I've been focusing on myself more and just stopped thinking about doing writing and art and doing stuff I more easily enjoy like playing video games and keeping my mind in my present and that has been working wonders for me also realizing that my brain is just a naturally wondering thing when it comes to ideas and that I'm just gonna have moments of really enjoying one idea and then move on to being passionate about something else over and over again and learning to embrace that instead of seeing that as a problem.
I haven't given up on art or writer in any real way (I'm not even sure if I can at this point honestly) but its really not something I feel I can do well when all I feel about it now is just a lot of anxiety and numbness while doing it which stems from many things from my past I have not fully gotten over yet so its the main form of stress for me at the moment and I'm thinking if I take a good break from even thinking about it I can hopefully come back to it one day with a brighter perspective and I think that is slowly by surely happening.
I'm not sure when it will fully return as I've said about I need medical help as well for my mental well being but putting myself first has been great for me to remember how it feels to enjoy doing something and helping me remember what kind of MLP stories I would like to make one day.
