Idols and Love · 2:12am Jul 28th, 2020

(Art by 1an1).

I found out my father, a person I admire over anyone else in my life, has an auto-immune disease called rheumatoid arthritis. He has been struggling as of late, health wise, pain and all. He doesn't show it too much, as he is a hardy, stern man. There isn't anyone who works as hard as him and cares as deeply for his family as he does.

He is one of a small subset of people I consider to be genuinely admirable. And now he has something that eats away at you for the rest of your life. Of course, he doesn't let this stop him. he takes his pills, continues to live life as normal, normal for him being neat constant work.

I offered to pick up even more slack for the family than I already do, as I work tirelessly to make sure I'm helping where I can as best I can. He denied it, saying it was "alright."

He is tough, I know he'll battle through it like a good trooper, but I do worry. I love my father, and I try to embody his virtue in my daily life. Without him, I wouldn't be the man I am today. If his lifespan is shortened because of this, if I were to lose him in the next ten years or so, I'm afraid I'd lose a bit of myself.

But I will have to persevere, for his sake and mine.

I wanted to just speak about this for a moment, as it's weighing on my mind right now. A healthy way to let out my thoughts, as it were.

Cherish the time of the ones you love, and those you idol, as time can swiftly take them away at a moments notice. As mentioned in my last blog, time is a resource so freely thrown away. The value of it is irreplaceable, unlike money.

To any in a similar position as me, you have my blessings. If there is a lord up above, may he grant me, and others like me, the strength to see this through. I know I'll give it my all, for his sake.