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Jul
8th
2020

Inner Peace. 💖 · 2:21am Jul 8th, 2020


Lovely news as of recent.

I've found a sense of tranquility and peace in my life.

For those who might not have known, I've been dealing with heavy depression since last year.

I had lost someone in my family who I loved and cherished.

With her passing, I had just about fell over the edge.

It was a real reason that I had tried to find some reason for my existence through happiness and generosity.

Yet no matter how much I tried, I could never fill a hole which was in my heart.

I'd have good days and bad, sometimes I'd just break down into crying in the shower.

Sometimes I'd stay in bed or forget to eat for days straight.

I'd do my best to smile, make jokes or be bubbly.

It was all just my way to force happiness back into my life.

Yet without even a notice, my sister had given me something I searched for all this time, that being a sense of faith.

"The happiest times of my life have been at my sister's side, she's never closed me out, no matter whatever I asked. I feel I can be myself and not afraid of what's next, one day I'll stand on my own but seeing her already out there and doing so much. I only hope I can be like her."

My older sister had found my, little sister's journals.

I've been reading them non-stop, but it was this that stood out the most.

Written just a tiny bit before that day.

She still was proud of me, even when I hated myself. ~ When I felt I abandoned her...

Just knowing that, it's reignited a fire deep inside my heart.

For the first time in the longest time, I've been able to truly sleep.

To really smile.

I even feel more comfortable as myself.

I'm ready to move on now.

Ready to just move forward to somewhere full of sunshine and warmth.

For this moment, I'm honestly at peace.

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Comments ( 15 )

I'm so proud of you. Five words that can go a long way. Even from a friendly stranger. I'm glad you're doing better! Stay positive and face the world head on! We're rooting for you.

"Inner peace..."

~Kung Fu Panda 2

💖

Glad ye feel peace in your self! :) If you need to talk I'm right here! Btw, did you draw that?

5303254
Lol, no I wish.

But represents how I feel! 💖

Oi, thank you though.

These past few days have been the Better I've felt in almost a year, like pressure lifted off my shoulders.

5303250
Thank you so much, I will , I need too.

I feel that I can just take on anything right now, I don't feel that dread or shadow of sadness following me.

5303261
your welcome! :)

5303274
It was, one I thought I'd carry forever.

But now I feel more spiritually recovered you know?

I actually have been far less reserved lately, just opening up waay more.

5303279
Absolutely, I've needed to just open up about this past year more than anything!

~ Hugs~

Thank you River, I hope your days have been blessed.

You have clearly come a long way. Keep fighting, brave warrior, and think about superhero ninja possums sending your inner demons to Tartarus.

5303348
Daaw, thank you.

This comment totally made my day!

I am so happy to hear this my friend

5304357
Mm-hmm, time to take hold of my life!

5304364
Indeed! Take hold and seize the day!

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