The Blog with Existential Author Whining · 9:37am Nov 21st, 2012
This is that blog. I'll open up by thanking everyone for helping me out and giving me advice on all my random questions I'm asking when I should be writing for you. ha-ha.
Writing is always so... double-edged to me. I rarely feel as whole and idealized as I do when I complete something. A story, a chapter. On the other hand, I always fall back on the feeling that I'm a failure.
I know. I look at the attention that Dream of Dawn has gotten and it's nothing I can call a failure. A lot of people like it and a lot of very smart readers are reading it. I've managed to evoke some emotion a couple times! That's pretty cool. Spectacular and awesome.
I'm always plagued with the thoughts of 'it could have been better.' I could have poured more energy into this. I feel like I'm doing you a disservice but I can't pinpoint how to suck less. But that's one of the writers' poisons people keep talking about. So I'm not going to let it take me down.
On the other hoof, I'm a little tired of writing Dream of Dawn. No. Not tired of writing it. Writing ONLY it. It's still a hell of a lot of fun and I'm not the kind of person who stops writing something at 400 pages and says they'll finish it later. Hell, I didn't want to finish that one story and there was practically no one reading it at the time. But I did it anyway. (Right now I would say don't read it, it kind of blows.)
And it's not about popularity either. If I wanted to do that I'd write more (any?) nickel clop or this host of terrible ideas I have like 'ponies reproduce by consuming massive amounts of sugar; shenanigans ensue' stuff that's basically feature box fodder. Sure I want to be read but I also want to be providing a service for the READERS and if I'm not doing that adequately then I need to get it together.
Seriously, though... I don't need a break from writing or anything, but I feel like I deserve a one-shot. And maybe a cookie.
I feel you on that one, I may not be as well written but ideas must be expressed one way or another, might as well be My Little Pony. Dream of Dawn has come a long way and every chapter is still worth reading, keep on keeping on.
I am totally new to fanfic writing so take what I say with a grain of salt.
It basically gives me a headache. A headache which won't leave till I get the story out. Luckily I am only working on one story currently. I am not sure how some people on this site churn out so much stuff. Maybe its because I have a job and family.
Take a break. Write a one-shot. Sometimes, our minds need refreshers, or our writing starts to suffer for it.
I write random crossovers if I feel bored with my current story; gets the edge of. Or I ask my friend to give me two prompts and I mix them together, no matter how stupid the result sounds
But just take a break, or do indeed write a wee one shot. You should enjoy what you write, rather than feel compelled to do it.
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Somehow I'm betting you're at least as 'well written' as I am if not moreso. . . but I'm glad people enjoy the story. If nothing else it should be fun!
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Some ponyfic writers are beasts. Also keep in mind that some of them have their work edited by other people, so the work goes smoother. But it does ultimately come down to free time. Some writers get work done by neglecting their job, their schooling, their family, and you don't want to be those unless I guess someone is paying you a lot of money (and I guess that becomes then the job).
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This is seriously a good idea.
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I feel compelled in the internal sense more than the external one. But yes. I think it's time for a little catharsis.
I completely agree with what you say here.. In other words: DANGIT THAT WAS GONNA BE MY BLOG POST!
*gives cookie*
Take your time and relax. I love the fanfic your writing and am currently hooked up to it, so there is not much you can do to make me stop anticipating the next chapter. If taking a time to regather your thoughts and making a one-shot story helps you please go for it. Thanks for the fanfic
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Darn tootin' it is! I'm also curious as to what you'd write, of course