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Stellar_


I'm sorry to anyone who ever read any of my stories and thought they'd go anywhere, and I'm sorry to anyone who believed in me.

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  • 17 weeks
    I've Given Up

    (May 21st, 2020) I'm sorry, but I'm making my departure from writing. Not just Pony Fanfiction, but everything. I've just been let down by myself too many times to count. I have so very many stories unfinished, deleted, and buried that I dont see the point in trying anymore. I know I've said this before a few times, that I've given up on writing, but this time I mean it. Do not expect any more

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  • 17 weeks
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    I'm just gonna blame that in my current imability to write anything anything good, or rather anything at all... :applecry:

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  • 28 weeks
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I've Given Up · 5:41am May 21st

(May 21st, 2020) I'm sorry, but I'm making my departure from writing. Not just Pony Fanfiction, but everything. I've just been let down by myself too many times to count. I have so very many stories unfinished, deleted, and buried that I dont see the point in trying anymore. I know I've said this before a few times, that I've given up on writing, but this time I mean it. Do not expect any more writing from me, ever. I've just been hurt by myself too much. No more, I've decided. In order to stop getting hurt and disappointed in myself time and time again, I've stopped writing. I gave up. I lost. Good riddance.

I'm sorry to everyone who read a story I wrote at some point and thought it was good, and thought it had potential, and wanted to see more, or whatever. So did I. Sorry.

I know I'm probably going to post something again. I know that what I'm doing will only hurt me, and I know it'll just end how it always does, but just like a drug addict I keep coming back to it over and over again, hoping this time will be different, and knowing the pain. And just like a drug addict I always end of emotionally and mentally broken at the end, questioning why I keep doing this to myself.

It's 1:30 in the morning currently, so I'm probably going to wake up and regret writing this just like every piece of writing I've ever done. But... Oh well.

I'm not leaving the site. There's still plenty here to read. I'm just not going to post anything ever again, hopefully...

Look, if anyone wants to contact me, my Twitter is @StellarGryphon. Or just send me a DM on here, it's gets send to my email so I'll see it.

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Comments ( 16 )

What?! Dude, you write great stories! Why do you want to stop?!

PIty, I really enjoyed your storires

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I just simply can't bear to keep writing things anymore. It always ends up the same way,, with me disappointed and frustrated and sad at myself. So no more.

5266469
I don't understand your though processing here. You make great stories.

5266469
Maybe you get some motivation again one day

5266470
No I don't. I make good first chapters. Anything after that is me struggling and struggling and struggling to release a second chapter. And of course I usually never do.

5266471
I have plenty of motivation. I just can't use for anything

5266472
I'm pretty sure you just need to take a break, from what I can see. But don't leave. You can come back at any time.

5266473
As I said, maybe you get one day the spark to write again

But I enjoyed your stories! You're a great writer!

5266541
People seemed to enjoy them, yes, but I never really enjoyed writing them after the initial chapters...

5266575
Honestly, I think your problem is that you have ideas for stories that give you just enough drive to complete one chapter before losing interest. I completely get that. It's a problem I myself have struggled with, and probably still do.

I see there being two solutions to this problem. The first being to write some one-shot stories. Maybe practice writing little bite-sized stories before trying to get into the big, hundred-thousand word epics. You said yourself that you write good first chapters. Well, one-shots only have one chapter to begin with. So go for it.

The second solution to this is to write out your entire lengthy, chapter-filled story, or at least the first draft, before ever even pressing the publish button. That way, if you have ideas in the future, you'll have to put extra commitment into what you're writing in order for it to see the light of day. Now, most ideas you probably won't find it in yourself to continue to full-length stories, and that's perfectly okay. It gives you some ideas in reserve that you can use later for other stories. But the ones you do decide to flesh out will be all the better for it, because they're the ones you'll be the most interested in, and thus put the most of your heart into.

What I'm saying is, don't beat yourself up too hard over this. I'm pretty sure most authors have to learn how to commit to the works they write. It's not like novels spring to life after a single intense writing session from the author. Instead, use this as a learning experience. I personally can tell you that this is not just a you problem. I've been there. I'm still there.

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That....soumds like a possible solution... Problem is all the ideas I have are always for long stories...

5266575
Hmm, yes, I feel that when I'm into writing a story with multiple chapters and it feels that I'm taking forever to finish it. But whatever you wish to do, I'll respect it. :heart:

5267059
Thanks for that :)

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