May
2nd
2020
The Worst Kind of Dream · 8:51pm May 2nd, 2020
It isn't a nightmare, because no matter how frightening those might be in the moment, eventually you wake up and can take comfort in the realization that none of it was real.
No, far worse is to dream of something you so desperately yearn for more than anything else, to finally find it and experience an all too fleeting moment of perfect blissful joy, only to wake up and have all of that ripped away... to dream of paradise is to wake up to the disappointment of a reality that feels like a nightmare.
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Emeral Bookwise · 330 views
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Been there. It does kind of suck. But you need to keep pressing on as much as you can anyway. Please.
You’re seriously starting to worry me, Emeral.
Sigh...
I not trying to make anyone worry, nor do I need anyone to tell me to keep persevering. I'm quite capable of doing both those things all by myself. What I can't do by myself is shake my feelings of lonely isolation.
I'm not your burden, I'm not a problem to be "fixed"... sometimes I just need someone else to talk to, so I don't feel trapped inside my own head all the time.
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So do these feeling come from what's in the news right now?
Is it like Dash finally joining the Wonderbolts and learning they're not so perfect as she dreamed?
Or is it more like Dash finally joining the Wonderbolts and permanently crippling her wings?
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I mean, I could complain at no small length about everything wrong in the world right now, but no, this wasn't really about that. This really was about a dream, not just any good dream, but one that made me feel happy on deeper level.
Obviously the limitations reality can't ever compare to the endless possibility of dreams, but today... well, it just felt somehow even less fair than usual and I just needed to vent some of that frustration.