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to just let you be who you are.
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Chapter 19: To be, or not to be
“We’re done with what you’re doing there. You're not helping us in any way.
“You’re right. I'm not going to let you do that for the rest of the night.
“We’ll find out tomorrow night.”
“So. What have you been seeing since the trip?”
“Nothing.”
“That’s strange.”
“It’s not just that the place is beautiful, it feels like you’re actually there.”
“No,” he muttered, trying to find more words. “You’ll have to tell me all about it, I’m starting to get annoyed at you.”
“You’re a little paranoid,” she pointed out. "You’re trying to tell me that a human has taken up residence in a cavern here? I’m not going to sleep in my own room anymore.”
“I get it, we’re going to get used to the darkness we’re leaving behind.”
After a brief period of thinking, she settled back into her post-nightmare sleeping state.
“Where the fuck.”
“In front of the cavern,” he offered. “Or maybe behind the place, if that makes you feel better.”
“And where the hell was you?”
“I think I'm still the last one to discover it. There's almost always something behind the things that’s supposed to be.”
“It’s dark,” she whispered, 'but it’s not bad,” she added a slightly more skeptical grin.
“So what happened on the way?”
“Picked up a few strange things too, but otherwise not much.”
“All of them?”
“Of course, but not quite what we thought. A pair of aether, and then something a little bit different. It wasn’t like what we’d expected here, actually.”
There’s no going back now...
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“If you can’t hear me, you’re not the one who is.”
She turned her back to the cavern until she reached the wall.
“What. The. Fuck.”
Cannon was watching her. She didn’t really see what was going on, so her mouth started to form words and she’d heard a lot she thought that probably shouldn’t have, but that was getting back in her head and it felt like a burden had been lifted from her. She couldn’t be in the place herself.
“That’s just how things go, when in reality they always go back to what they were, and we don’t know what we're dealing with.”
Grimacing, she turned to her now slightly damp sheets,”
“Well, we could always go over your thoughts again. Did you want me to give you something to do, or what’s that all about?”
“There’s no going back to the last time,” she answered, her voice sounding so far away. “There’s only going to be so much that can be done, and that’s what makes life so fucking hard. There’s gotta be something that’s going to come back with it. But that’s for another time,” she added, taking another deep breath. She closed her eyes for a moment, and was suddenly aware of a small part of herself she wanted to avoid being reminded of any longer.
She’d already planned to keep that part of herself to herself, but if there was any sign to the sudden change of mood, it would’ve just gotten worse.
“Then what?”
“And, you’re right, I’m pretty damn fucked,” she said evenly. “But this whole place is fucking amazing, I haven’t felt so good in years, and there’s gonna be so much to do. The caves are huge, the magic is so strong. I don’t know how many of these other things you’re into.”
