15 days later... · 9:24am Apr 30th, 2020
Another blog. Hello ponies. Tis I, Raritiy, coming to you with an update: I am not dead.
It's three AM. Can't sleep. What else is new? Depression is a funny thing. It can creep up on you when you least expect it. When you have everything going for you. Brand new job is working out nicely. Hours are strange, but so far I'm getting along. Turns out, a coworker of mine from my previous employment managed to find their way into my current employment. We got along rather grand, so I'm quite pleased to find they've the same shift as I do. Overnight. Perfect for an insomniac, yes?
Tis not been bothering me quite so much, as of late, but it's rearing its ugly head tonight. A shame. I've got a fantastic new job, new coworkers, money in the bank, and yet....things are amiss. I suppose my cousin's death perchance has something to do with things. I didn't know them all too terribly well. We met when I was younger a few times. But they're family. And that's always hard. Covid claims yet another victim.
I'm trying to distract myself. It's not easy. Thinking about new stories I can write. Maybe old stories I can finish. The Twilight and Rainbow one comes to mind. The Trixie story about her at the M.A.G.I.C competition. Maybe that dumb Shining Armor cadence fic I was trying to write for B_25 and NC. It didn't come out right. I hated it. It lacked the flare the original story I wrote for B had and I'm just going to have to admit it just wasn't as much fun to write, or as good as I'd hoped it would be. I can't finish it. I don't want to. Quality fluctuates between fiction and that story just isn't up to snuff. It's almost a year old, and will remain unfinished.
Writing feels good, though. It always does, even if it's just a short blog like this. Perhaps thats what I'm missing. Just a few letters a day to keep the blues away. Perhaps I can find myself getting back into things, once I find myself with more time away from training for my new job.
Rarity, I'm so sorry for your loss. Even if you didn't know them well, as you said they were still family.
You take care, be safe and remember that we're all here for you.
Sorry to hear about your cousin.
Sorry for your loss
Be safe
That's horrible.
How old was your cousin, and did he or she have any underlying medical issues like diabetes? I ask because I'm in the groups that are most susceptible to the disease being fatal if I catch it.
Stay safe and stay beautiful, Lady Rarity.
5253499
Yes. He was immune compromised
5253500
Wow. Sorry to hear that.
Again, stay safe.