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RarityEQM


Just a pony being fabulous. Writer of vignettes, clop, experiments, a great deal of trash and the occasional gem

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  • 57 weeks
    Here and back again

    Things are rough my darlings.

    Its a cold, rainy morning. My favorite kind. No snow. No slush. I adore this. Even more so that I am under a heavy quilt.

    I'll write more when I wake up I think...

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  • 61 weeks
    A story in three parts

    And home. Well. I'm not dead. Fancy that. Whatever the pain is, it's not my kidneys. Which is as baffling as it is reassuring. I very much am grateful of course, but...also...wtf darling. They handed me some pills and told me to get some rest. They plugged me up with all kinds of machines which will cost and a leg, but I'm home, and my kidneys are okay. And I'm alive for another day. So darlings,

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  • 61 weeks
    The room

    31. Thats the number they gave me. Thats where I am. Room 31.

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  • 61 weeks
    This art, this life

    Has...has it been a month already? I suppose it has been. More than that, even. How are you my darling little ponies? I've missed you. And writing. And having a properly functioning laptop that can handle little things like opening up an internet browser and loading writing programs.

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  • 67 weeks
    Darlings...

    As you were. Oh, yes. Rarityeqm tis alive....sort of. Only sort of, these days. Mostly, I sleep. During the day. Restless, horrid sleep that does ever so little to stave off your wretched thirst for the sun. I'm drowning in darkness, my darlings. Tis cold here, in the wee hours of the morning. Behind me, my television muted. My coffee mug lovingly kissed and caressed the pot still bubbling across

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Apr
30th
2020

15 days later... · 9:24am Apr 30th, 2020

Another blog. Hello ponies. Tis I, Raritiy, coming to you with an update: I am not dead.


It's three AM. Can't sleep. What else is new? Depression is a funny thing. It can creep up on you when you least expect it. When you have everything going for you. Brand new job is working out nicely. Hours are strange, but so far I'm getting along. Turns out, a coworker of mine from my previous employment managed to find their way into my current employment. We got along rather grand, so I'm quite pleased to find they've the same shift as I do. Overnight. Perfect for an insomniac, yes?

Tis not been bothering me quite so much, as of late, but it's rearing its ugly head tonight. A shame. I've got a fantastic new job, new coworkers, money in the bank, and yet....things are amiss. I suppose my cousin's death perchance has something to do with things. I didn't know them all too terribly well. We met when I was younger a few times. But they're family. And that's always hard. Covid claims yet another victim.

I'm trying to distract myself. It's not easy. Thinking about new stories I can write. Maybe old stories I can finish. The Twilight and Rainbow one comes to mind. The Trixie story about her at the M.A.G.I.C competition. Maybe that dumb Shining Armor cadence fic I was trying to write for B_25 and NC. It didn't come out right. I hated it. It lacked the flare the original story I wrote for B had and I'm just going to have to admit it just wasn't as much fun to write, or as good as I'd hoped it would be. I can't finish it. I don't want to. Quality fluctuates between fiction and that story just isn't up to snuff. It's almost a year old, and will remain unfinished.

Writing feels good, though. It always does, even if it's just a short blog like this. Perhaps thats what I'm missing. Just a few letters a day to keep the blues away. Perhaps I can find myself getting back into things, once I find myself with more time away from training for my new job.

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Comments ( 6 )

Rarity, I'm so sorry for your loss. Even if you didn't know them well, as you said they were still family.

You take care, be safe and remember that we're all here for you. :heart:

Sorry to hear about your cousin.

Sorry for your loss:fluttershysad:

Be safe

That's horrible.

How old was your cousin, and did he or she have any underlying medical issues like diabetes? I ask because I'm in the groups that are most susceptible to the disease being fatal if I catch it.

Stay safe and stay beautiful, Lady Rarity.

5253499
Yes. He was immune compromised

5253500
Wow. Sorry to hear that.

Again, stay safe.

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