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Badwolf1175


''I am the Bad Wolf. I create myself. I take the words; I scatter them in time and space … a message to lead myself here.''-Rose. The new profile pic is by RiverMoon

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  • 69 weeks
    I am back

    Hello guys so I am back. I am still here and check up on things. I hope everything has been good. I will tell you the truth O am having trouble with my life right now. I am going to stay here and logged in. I am going to stay. I don't know if I have the ability to keep writing but I will try to get to writing when things settle down.

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  • 106 weeks
    I am alive still!

    I am still alive and have not forgotten about this place. I have actually been feeling like coming back however right now I am looking for a job or I will be forcibly removed from my home so pretty high stakes but still I am still working on all of that and now there’s good news too. I have gotten my very new gaming PC which means I can make YouTube videos again. I used to make YouTube videos

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  • 132 weeks
    Hey everyone. I am just making a quick update.

    I have and haven’t been doing to well recently. I had a lot of anxiety attacks recently due to stress but I am keeping myself largely busy for the most part with games. I plan on recording some games maybe and posting them on YouTube and as for my stories I really really want to write again but I know I can’t under the current condition I am in and so please wait for a bit. I am also getting

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  • 141 weeks
    I am alive.

    Hello everyone. I have been gone for quite a while now and it’s because I am trying to work on my life and personal problems. I have been trying to get things together and get everything ready. It has not worked out so well. I know I have failed all of you and I promise I don’t plan on leaving forever but I need time to get my life together. I look back here and worry about how I failed you all.

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  • 168 weeks
    Update.

    So let's just talk about my stories. I am planning more for clever like a fox and others but sadly as I have said it will come out in short content bursts and I am planning a new story but it will have to wait. I am at a stand still because of the lack of content I have been putting out regarding my YouTube videos as well but a new law can come into affect that could be damaging to my channel but

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Apr
7th
2020

Time to Decide. · 9:55pm Apr 7th, 2020

I have already made it clear that in the past I have been more machine then human but I was brought back to being human again by my fiance. I have been happy with everything incept recently. I have watched my life get ripped apart in away that I can't repair. I have been dealing with my problems and my epilepsy. I have always remained strong and standing well the old me that is as I have been working as hard as I can and haven't been strong enough to do anything. Everybody looks at me and asks me for help and advice. I try to give it to them but I am not the same person. I am not sure what to do as it feels like I have been split into two. One is the cold and calculating person I was previously but the other is my usual normal self. I feel like there's a civil war with in me. I don't know what to do anymore and I need advice. I can't be both of them at the same time. I have fought for people so long that I can remember. I don't think I have the strength to do it anymore. I will be honest in saying that this as well goes far beyond even this problem as I have been talking to my fiance and she said to some degree that she was sorry about all the fighting but she said and did a lot of things that hurt me and I honestly love her but I honestly don't know how or if I can forgive her. One part says that I should forgive her but then the other part chimes in and reminds me that just because she sorry doesn't make it okay. I have been arguing with myself to the point where I can't get any sleep. Do I close off my feelings once again or do I keep going? I don't know what to do. I have watched my life and dreams get torn apart before my eyes. I love a person who I don't know if I can trust and to top it all off I am not sure what I can do. I need help and advice from someone.

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Comments ( 5 )

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Agreed you definitely need a break just Relax and think asking for help is the right thing to do I would suggest not closing yourself up that isn’t good

Man, I really, really, really wish I had something more helpful to say than...well, I'll be praying for you. I'm not experienced in this type of thing, so I can't say I know what you should do next. But I hope that everything works out.

I honestly say forgive her. if you truly love her with all your heart, and even if you don't, forgive her. Forgiving someone for a wrong done to you can help unload some rather heavy weights on your shoulders. you don't have to forgive her now, it can even come with in a few years from now. forgive and then let go of the pain. and believe me, it works

Comment posted by Blackraven deleted Apr 8th, 2020
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