Just Remember... · 5:45pm Feb 5th, 2020
...you're all very special to me. Everyone, that is, who I've made friends with, including my followers and those who I've come across on FiMfiction and Discord.
Personal things will be explained here, just a brief notice.
Sometimes, though, I do drag myself down. I find it hard especially to feel positive about myself when others do purposely make me feel bad for whatever reasons. Some are, difficult, let's say to talk about, especially as I've been thinking about why I suddenly plopped on earth and what I'm meant to be doing. Sounds silly, I know, but when I come across the difficult pressure that some do put on me for who/what/where/when/why I am as someone who's here.
You see, I do love writing, but the words for when I am writing can sometimes get stuck in my brain and so I don't write much when I want to... writer's block, I should say. Especially with stories that I really want to continue writing, like Unicorn's Horn and I Am Not a Monster. And I also really want to do a sequel to You Are Fluttershy, where Anastasia gets caught up in daily life as Fluttershy (if you wish to, I recommend having a read if you don't know what I'm on about). It makes me feel very guilty because I want to share my imagination with others... there is so much more that I want to write about our favourite technicolour ponies. I've even considered writing short romcom fics, snuggly and silly fics, transformation fics and maybe something adult-related (that's taking a while, though). I do want to write more... but it's the fear of it being rushed and not coming out so well. I felt very bad when I took done some fics that were negatively rated, even though I felt it to be the right thing to do nonetheless.
Personal matters are another thing, a BIG thing. January sucked for me. I felt very guilty about myself. Why? I don't know, except that maybe some people just like to make others so negative about themselves. It really did get to a point last month where I was seriously struggling. Users have been really supportive and offer friendship that I take to heart. They have been especially recently. It's not cool thinking about death. Suicide and/or self-harm was on my mind for quite some time, again the feeling of guilt took over. I do believe in God; meeting other Christain bronies and pegasisters have given me positivity over the fandom. Another thing was that I needed help with my sexuality. I was really surprised and felt very grateful for some who asked me about it and I explained my issue to them both publicly and privately. I get those who will just damn me for things that I have been fighting against, however, the power of help and friendship has really overshadowed all of that. It has really made me really happy. People actually helping me fight with battles, rather than giving up on me. That's what friends are for.
I kind of wanted to get this blog out, but never got round to it. This is my explanation for the, ahem, avatar. Hope we can all still be friends because I love all of you amazing, talented people. And a big thank you, from the bottom of my heart, for the kind messages and comments over the last weeks or so. It's meant a lot.
Love all of you wonderful people. Now, back to writing Tempest's last Armada adventure, Autumn's battle with the nirik within and Anastasia experiencing life as Fluttershy.
*hugs Muffin tightly*
I'm so sorry you had to go through that. I really hope you're feeling better now.
We are all here for you! If you need someone to talk to, you know where to find me.
Plus Athumn Blaze will be here for you too
Stay strong Muffin. You’ll get through this
*Sending Hugs*
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Thank you all for your kind words and company during my time here. I hope I can continue to make you all smile with what I make.
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You're welcome! Hope the Authumn link in the PM cheers you up
Muffin, Muffin! That's our pone!
Always got friends, never alone!
GooOOOOOO MUFFIN!
Oops! Lost a pompom...
Muffin, hey... *picks up and hugs* Is okay. We're here.
*snuggles* You can always talk to us, we're all here for you.
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I'll head into PM now.
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Dawah, thank you so much. So sweet.
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Thanks, Four. Always a joy talking with you.
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*Squeeeeeee*
Awww, and I wuv talking to you too!
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Everything to cheer you up
Feel free to PM me if you want to chat.
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Ah, don't mention it!
... seriously, I'll never live it down. I have a reputation to uphold!
Hey.
You matter.
Don't let anyone tell you otherwise
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That would be fun to do. Send me a message anytime, I enjoy the company.
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Thank you. And you matter too.
We love you muffin, don't ever forget that.
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And I love each and every one of you too.
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Come little Muffin
I'll take the away
Into a land of enchantment
Come Little Muffin
The times come to play
Here in my garden of magic
Follow sweet Muffin
I'll show thee the way
Though all the pain and the sorrows
Weep not poor Muffin
For life is this way
Murdering beauty and passion
Hush now my Muffin
It must be this way
Be weary of lies and deception
Rest now my Muffin
For soon we'll away
Into calm and the quiet.
Come little Muffin
I'll take thee away
Into a land of Enchantment
Come little children
The times come to play
Here in my garden of magic~.
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That's... beautiful, thank you.
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*hugs*
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*hugs back*
I love your work man, don't ever give up. Looking forward to the next chapter of the Armada Trilogy. By the way remember the advice I've given for certain certain characters to help out.
You have been through much difficulty, things that are very hard, Just know we are here for you should you ever need us friend
I am so sorry you had to go through that.
I hope you feel better, and pray that you get through these tough times. We're all here for you, and want you to be happy.
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Thanks, man. I have the notes written down for Armada III: Unicorn's Horn, thanks for the ideas you offered. The next chapter is about 75% done and should be out soon. I'm also working on a story with Bronycommander and other projects, including Act II of I Am Not a Monster, the second chapter to You Are Fluttershy (with potentially a sequel) and some shorter heartwarming fics.
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Thanks for being a friend, especially. It's much easier when there are others to talk to.
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Thanks, Blue. You've always been a supportive friend since I started here.
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it's the least I can do my friend, and I know that it can make a difference for sure