• Member Since 20th Sep, 2012
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Pyromaniac


Back after being in a coma for four years. Call me Henry, I write about horses with multiple personalities and anxiety.

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  • 180 weeks
    I didn't disappear again, I promise

    This year sucked.

    I've just been trying to cope. I'm in and out of various kinds of episodes. Quarantine has me fucked up. The last week has me in some fucked up relapse and I've been forgetting the days. I keep have fits of rage because I can't remember what year it is. I hate this.

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  • 223 weeks
    Things slowly get easier

    My birthday is in a few weeks, and it's surreal. I'm going to be 20, but I still feel like a child. I guess that comes with the territory of lost time

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  • 224 weeks
    It's been hard

    I've been in and out of consciousness the past week. Everything's been rather hard, my schizophrenia has had a flareup and it's hard to get out of bed when I'm having delusions and hallucinations again. I haven't been in control very often the past few days, it's mostly been the adults in control, I guess

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  • 225 weeks
    Oh...

    It's 30 minutes to midnight.

    Our fiance fell asleep, so I'm totally alone.

    I've been crying nonstop, and having urges to self-harm again honestly

    This is horrible. I feel horrible

    I just want to fall asleep for a few days until I feel better...

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  • 225 weeks
    In case I don't make it to midnight

    I was really excited for the new year. Especially for the new decade, and I didn't think I would be

    ....then everyone I know had a bad new year. And people started telling me they felt awful that it was a new decade, and they missed the past, etc

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Jan
1st
2020

Oh... · 8:32am Jan 1st, 2020

It's 30 minutes to midnight.

Our fiance fell asleep, so I'm totally alone.

I've been crying nonstop, and having urges to self-harm again honestly

This is horrible. I feel horrible

I just want to fall asleep for a few days until I feel better...

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Comments ( 4 )

Pyro! I'm so sorry I'm just seeing this now! If you see this, hit me up. I'm here for you!:heart:

5178573
It's okay, thank you for reaching out :fluttercry: If it's ok can I toss you my discord or something?

5178688
Whatever you like. Whatever is best for you.

Damn, I thought my grief was bad. I'm sorry about your horrible condition, personally, art has helped me pull through my mother's passing. For me, it's primarily daydreaming. Then using the ideas created during that process to create art.

Music is another big helper. I've got a few songs that may be good for you, though I don't know you personally. Expect the nightmare moon fanfic.
So my music might not connect with you as we're two different people of different age groups, personalities, disorders, upbringing, etc.

But if you ever want music recommendations, I would be more than glad to help. I hate seeing people like this because it's just so unfair for the one who's suffering.

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