So the New year is Coming soon · 12:50am Jan 1st, 2020
And Before this one ends I just wanted to explain my current state of things since this year has been bad on me
I really wish I did more writing on this website (and art on others) but there were a few things holding me back I wanted to vent out since I do have dreams of having this account go somewhere
-My main problem is my depression and without knowing it, it seems to have gotten worse and now it's to the point where I can barely feel anything. I Literally can't muster any drive to do any of my ideas, everything just feels hollow or extremely frustrating
-another problem is my doubts and self-confidence about my ideas, mostly my Mpreg ones since I honestly hate that I feel I have to explain it, in all my stories. I mean I do have an explanation (Multiverse which means alternate biology) It's just not one that needs to be explained in the story, and besides I don't want too anyway.
-another thing is a lack of a Job.there isn't much to say here I just really wanna start getting an outcome of money so I can get out of this stagnant part of my life and find freedom in doing new things
-Another minor thing is how I got myself really overwhelmed with this fanbase, my next-gen is like stupid big and for some reason and I wanna make a second one because I'm crazy lol. and with it comes to a lot of bios and stories I wanna make for them but because of the other things I wrote I don't have the energy to do all that (along with the fact I am multi-fandom and change fandoms like clothes and have too many fan kids in other fandoms that I also wanna give my time too).
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And despite all I just said I am very hopeful, this new year I feel the next 10 years of life are gonna be very life-changing, sure I miss the boat when the show still going and the fanbase was strong but I feel this fanbase is not going anywhere anytime soon and there is always G5
and next, I wanna thanks my watchers who has been around despite my lack of activity, and for that I really wanna try my best to give content next year,I'm not sure If I can give the best but I am gonna try getting out my comfort zone and figure out my mental problem so I can go back and make stuff I am passionate about
I love you guys and have a happy new years 💕
I understand the feeling all to well, about depression and feeling of having my like stuck in a rut and can't seem to focus on anything for very long. Best sting that I can say on the subject, that helped me to get out of it was to take up a challenge and stick with it and set multiple milestones. start with baby steps. don't lose heart you can do it if you set you mind to it and overcoming a challenge is a good step in overcoming depression.
Goodluck
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This is great advice and now that I am thinking about it,I think I know something I can be a good Starter project for me.Thanks so much for the advice :)