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180 weeks
I didn't disappear again, I promise

This year sucked.
I've just been trying to cope. I'm in and out of various kinds of episodes. Quarantine has me fucked up. The last week has me in some fucked up relapse and I've been forgetting the days. I keep have fits of rage because I can't remember what year it is. I hate this.
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223 weeks
Things slowly get easier

My birthday is in a few weeks, and it's surreal. I'm going to be 20, but I still feel like a child. I guess that comes with the territory of lost time
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224 weeks
It's been hard

I've been in and out of consciousness the past week. Everything's been rather hard, my schizophrenia has had a flareup and it's hard to get out of bed when I'm having delusions and hallucinations again. I haven't been in control very often the past few days, it's mostly been the adults in control, I guess
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225 weeks
Oh...

It's 30 minutes to midnight.
Our fiance fell asleep, so I'm totally alone.
I've been crying nonstop, and having urges to self-harm again honestly
This is horrible. I feel horrible
I just want to fall asleep for a few days until I feel better...
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225 weeks
In case I don't make it to midnight

I was really excited for the new year. Especially for the new decade, and I didn't think I would be
....then everyone I know had a bad new year. And people started telling me they felt awful that it was a new decade, and they missed the past, etc
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Dec

28th

2019

Hhhhhhhhh · 6:07am Dec 28th, 2019

My fukkin job involves a lot of writing so I am really slow on the next chapter of MNiNM, I'm at 589 words so far One of my alters who goes by Purple Star has been helping me with editing my writing since she's a little better at it than me, both shiz I have to turn in for my job and fanfics

I'm really excited to work more on MNiNM, even if it is sporadic. I have an actual planned plot for it this time around, and I think it's rather cool, not to stroke my own ego I really am happy to be back into writing after all these years, even if I might not be very good, it's really cathartic and fun

Asnxcxncvnxm I'm just rambling into the void. What else do I have to say?

I'm doing some pre-planning for the fic I want to start after MNiNM. The hardest part is coming up with names and designs for every pony I have to give fitting designs for set personalities fffff

And thank you to everyone who read She Doesn't Smile! It makes me happy to see all the favorites and the likes on it! It's been y e a r s since I've wrote a one shot, and it was really fun to do!

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