So I died. Kind of · 11:37am Dec 21st, 2019
Hhhhholy shit does anyone I know still use this site? Maybe?
Hi! The past four years have been really fucking weird! I told myself on 12/21 I'd come back because that date is really really important to me. So uh, I did. And I've been gone for a really long time in more ways than one! I rewrote My Name is Nightmare Moon, so if you liked that way back in ye olde 2013 you should go sneak a peek
I've been more or less in a coma since I think late 2015-ish. And I feel like really oversharing! I was diagnosed with several mental disorders this year, specifically OCD, paranoid schizophrenia, and Dissociative Identity Disorder. Wow! That is a lot of disorders and a lot of my life makes a ton of sense now! The important part here is DID, you probably already know what it is by it's former name, Multiple Personality Disorder
It's speculated I've had DID since maybe 2003? The latest I could have possibly developed it is February 2006 yey
What I learned is that I've been talking to my alters (or personalities) this whoooole fucking time and didn't realize it because I didn't know that wasn't a normal thing for people to do lol. It took a lot of time but I figure the alters I had at the time you all knew me were my oc Sketchy Marks and possibly a personification of Nightmare Moon? DID is a really weird disorder, but I promise you I learned it is REALLY common for people to have alters that are fictional characters, but that's a whole psychology class session
From what was told to me, my personality kind of just.... gave up in late 2015, and someone else took over. I'll call her Hyde lol. She completely took over, and things happened that lead to her discovering we had DID before we got finally got diagnosed. Apparently I have a severe form of it that's unofficially known as being polyfragmented, which means there is a lot of alters and whenever we're stressed out we will probably gain new ones. This will probably go on for the rest of my natural lifespan
In case you were wondering, no we aren't planning on "curing" our DID and fusing into one personality. Our therapist supports this. So instead, our plan of healing is to try to work together effectively like a bunch of roommates 
I don't remember anything from late 2015 to mid-2019. It also took me some months to get over the shock that was waking up and learning I lost several years of my life I was SO FUCKING SAD to learn FiM ended while I was gone 
Other than that uhhh I'm an adult now! I have a job! I have a lot of pets! Turns out I'm pretty gay but I was lowkey homophobic because my family is very homophobic and I was really fucking scared! 
I turn 20 in like a month and a half which is really fucking scary! And we got engaged while I was gone hsczxzsfhzhhzacnsnvfrht
These days when we aren't at work I spend a lot of time hanging out in Second Life and kind of lazing on Discord. You can bug me for usernames if you want to talk
My closing note is I made a new ponysona. I feel kind of uncomfortable still using Pyro because she has a ton of bad memories attached, so meet Henry
That's all that's on my mind right now. Missed all of my friends, and hope everyone's been well these years
Welcome back Pyro. Glad to see you're I relative good health! I couldn't possibly imagine what you're going though with everything you've learned about yourself(selves?) Welcome to ADULTING. PS, it sucks. I hope you all the best in all your endeavors, and never be afraid to just be you, no matter the personality, sexuality, or whatever. Love who you are, no matter what others think. You're only ever gonna be you. Fuck others views. Oh, and if you're ever feeling alone, you still have a friend in me.
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I'm learning how to be myself which is really hard and scary but I'M dOING IT (we're doing it!)
Aaaaaaaa I missed you soo muchhhh
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I've missed you too. And I'm happy to learn you are working to be the best you can be. Just take everything in stride, and... if you ever need an ear, or an eye (to read), I will be here so long as you never forget me
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I'd never forget you
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That was intended to be a joke, but seeing it in writing makes me smile all the same. Thanks.
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*big hugs*
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*SQUEE!*
Oh my goodness! Pyro!
I won't lie, I have wondered what happened to you. But I never imagined this.
I'm just glad you're okay now. I hope things get better.
Also, I'm sorry I only just saw your blogs.
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Hello!! I'm good, things are getting better for me recently