Update... and apologies · 7:06pm Dec 12th, 2019
I'm terribly sorry. I know I said in the last few blog posts that I'll write two more chapters this year, one for Rebirth of the Damned and one for Fallout: Equestria - Infinite Potential. But... I cannot motivate myself to write anything! Heck, most of the time I don't even do anything lately, only watch some stuff. I am so tired after finishing work that all I wanna do is curl up in my bed and watch stuff. I hardly even play video games! Do you wanna know just how exhausted I am from working? Last week, I fell asleep while I was at my dentist's! No joke, I dozed off while I was in the chair. And yeah, waking up with somebody having a drill in your mouth was not a pleasant experience, even if it is hilarious...
So yeah, I think that instead of trying to force myself to write, it would be better if I'd spend this month at least resting and not worrying about it. I mean, I could try, at the very least I should be able to get Rebirth of the Damned's chapter done as it would be only a few thousand words long, I expect around 3k (which if I would put my all into it I could get done in a day, my personal best is 5k words in a day), but I'm afraid that with the way I am feeling the quality of the chapter could suffer. And powering through to get Infinite Potential's chapter done, that would be most likely around 20k words long at least, is at this point ludicrous. Especially since this year I'm not taking days off from work for the week between Holidays and New Year's.
I feel super bad about this, though. Rebirth of the Damnedh hadn't been updated since May, and I left it on such a big moment too! Considering how long it has been, practically anything I could write for the next chapter will feel so insignificant in comparison. And Infinite Potential... this will the first time in three years that I hadn't given you 4 chapters within a year! Years from now I'll be thinking "Ugh, I should be a chapter ahead already!"
Anyway, hopefully, December will be enough for me to get my mental batteries recharged. Of course, this will change the order of upcoming chapters. Rebirth will obviously still come out next, but considering that the readers of that had been waiting longer for an update, I will write two or three chapters in a row for them. Afterwards (or maybe somewhere in between), Stars in the Making, as it has been even longer since that story had an update, and only then Infinite Potential. I'm sorry, but considering that you have still one chapter coming soon (will address that in a moment), and that you will have 3 chapters this year (which I believe is more than any other story had this year), and not to mention that one of those chapters turned out to be longer than the combined chapters for all the other stories this year, I think it will be only fair, right? Obviously, I love Infinite Potential, and sorta consider it my magnum opus over here at fimfic, but I gotta be fair to the other stories and their readers too.
Speaking of which, about that whole "quota" of mine, to have 4 chapters a year... I'm unsure what to do about it. I would very much like to have 5 chapters next year to make up for this one, but I'm unsure if that would be possible. Heck, having 4 chapters next year might turn out to be strenuous, too. I'm actually considering switching to "3 chapters per year" now. With how much energy my work consumes, it would be more manageable for me to write only 3 of such long-ass chapters while at the same time ensuring the other stories get their attention. But of course, I am hesitating. I know that, like, 5 years from now, I'd be kicking myself in the head and saying: "I SHOULD BE FIVE CHAPTERS AHEAD ALREADY!!!!" So, yeah, a little conflicted over this.
And as for this upcoming chapter, chapter 15, it's coming soon, hopefully this weekend. One editor needs to do a final check-up. I would specify which one, because, you know, death threats from strangers are a great motivator (
), but A) she had her finals so it's understandable why she's been too busy, and B) she doesn't really visit fimfiction too often anyway, so she would miss any PMs you'd send.
Again, I am sorry for breaking my earlier promises, and for slowing down with my writing pace so much recently. I can only hope that this upcoming chapter and the new chapters for other stories that will hopefully come out next month will make up for it.
That's all for now, I'll try and write a short blog sometime later about stuff that I'm trying to do to rest, relax, and recharge. See ya then^^
Ah, I'm sorry you've been having such a draining time. Good luck!
And thanks for the updates, and don't worry about it. :)
My father always told me that if you feel drained (mentally or physically) after work then you've done a good job.
With that said, I say rest dude! Don't burn yourself to ground trying to keep us pleased, we're going to enjoy the chapter wethever it's out now or in a month.
What we won't enjoy is you stopping your writing entirely, so take the time you need.
Also waking up with a drill in your mouth sounds like a litteral nightmare...
don't force yourself to write if you don't want to, rest, think and whrite when inspiration comes
we don't want you to end up in depression or give up everything
rest yourself and come back when you are ready!
Relax, take a deep breath, and take your time. Don't burn yourself out. Real life sucks but it always comes first. We can wait. Till then, recuperate and get back to it when you're ready.