Bit of a vent blog · 4:06am Nov 3rd, 2019
On Tuesday, October 29th, my dad passed away of his third heart attack. He'd had a couple before, but this was the one that kicked his ass. He was constantly in and out of Code Blue (cardiac arrest), and they did so many chest compressions and defibrillator shocks that they were worried that, even if he survived the heart attack, his recovery period would be extensive. He always said that, were he in that situation, he wouldn't want to suffer through it. So my mom respected his wishes and pulled the plug.
It's been tough. She's been hit the hardest between the two of us. He was her other half, the one she could always depend on being there to back her up and take care of her. And now...all she's got is me. The financial situation is what has me scared the most, because Dad was the only one who did the bills. I'm not mentally fit to work (my opinion) and Mom's constantly in some form of pain from her back problems (which she had been considering/working up to surgery for). And on top of it all, she's recently been diagnosed as Type 2 Diabetic.
So...yeah. We're kinda in the shit right now. And I'm scared for us and our future. Because our literal worst fears have come true. I can get past the fact that Dad is gone. He wouldn't want me to linger on it, anyway. He was never one to have people fuss over him. But I'm nowhere near smart enough to handle the finances. And I'm highly emotional and highly temperamental, which isn't a good combination.
Thankfully, my older brother has been helping Mom with the finances; and a long-time friend of Dad's is gonna try and pick up where he leaves off once my brother goes back to his job up near D.C. tomorrow. She has plenty of friends in the area that we can call on if emotions get out of hand, and I have some people I trust that I can turn to if I need a form of venting.
So, yeah. I know it sounds like I'm fishing for sympathy, but we could definitely use all the prayers/good vibes you guys can send. It's gonna be a long, hard road, and I'm not sure we're entirely ready for it.
But I guess that's how a lot of our favorite stories start; isn't it?
Sorry for your loss, my friend. Stay strong. *hugs*
My thoughts are with you and yours. It's good to hear you've got a tangible support network. Best of luck.
I hope I'm not too overdue in sending positive vibes.
I hope you are feeling better.
Since I sort of went through the same scenario earlier this year where I lost grandpa due to a heart attack and alot of hell has happened.