Update! · 10:04pm Oct 2nd, 2019
Hey guys, Taka here. I'm going to go over everything that's happened rapid-fire, because a lot has happened since I last posted:
- I've moved from my first apartment into my parents' house. This happened for a couple of reasons; 1) the apartment was too much money to stay in and we were paying more than it was actually worth to stay there, and it was falling apart at the seams; 2) timing was perfect for it, but I won't delve into too much detail about that here. All told, I was told that we were moving out by the end of September at the beginning of the month, so my focus was on that solely.
- Credit card fraud kicked my butt this past month as well. Compiled to an overwhelming amount of stress that kept me from writing.
- General dissatisfaction with where my life is going has caused a lot of depression. The general thought is that I want to be a trailblazer in a certain medium, but I'm afraid of failure; on the other side of the coin, if I stay a follower, I know that I won't be satisfied with where I'm at. Couple that with an addiction I'm trying to overcome, it becomes a massive negative feedback loop. I have been attending one-on-one therapy and will be soon joining AA-type group therapy sessions to help get me back on my feet.
All in all, it was really hard for me to write these past few months, especially with the latter point. I'm undergoing a massive change in my life in all possible angles, and it has been nothing less than exhausting. But now since the moving part is done, I can finally focus my efforts into writing. I won't promise a date for anything, but chapter fourteen of Ballad of the Dawn is over halfway done, and I'm hoping to kickstart myself back into writing by doing another NaPoWriMo marathon. But that really depends on how I feel. After all, Ballad of the Dawn was a NaPoWriMo submission that I couldn't finish, so I'll see after I outline some ideas if it's something I want to undertake.