Depresso Espresso

So to be honest, I've been a depressed piece of shit lately, last Thursday I ended up getting dumped for reasons unknown to me, and I lost one of the closest people to me, My best friend that I have known all of my life since early childhood committed suicide, I feel like a terrible friend because I was not there for him when he needed me most, I wasn't available when he was crying for help and for that I want to die, the pain is all too real and I don't know how to handle it anymore

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[Applefai]

I don't know how exactly to help or put this into words, but I sure will try.

It is natural to feel guilt, but blaming yourself and wishing for death is not.

I don't know how it feels to lose anyone to suicide, and I pray to God it doesn't happen, I wouldn't even want an enemy to commit suicide.

All I can do is lend an ear, some advice, and hopefully help you.

You shouldn't blame yourself, I don't know much of the situation, but I'm sure as the day is long, that you would have helped him if you had known, or helped him as much as you can.

Instead of blaming yourself, why don't you keep your friends memory alive by remembering how he was before he committed suicide, I'm sure he'll want you to do that, and I'm sure he thought of you as a dear friend and even a brother

[Silent Echo]

:C

[Hello_85]

don't lose hope and I am sympathetic for your loss. but you cant give up no matter what life hits you with. I hope whatever you do next it is something that will make you happier.
Hello_85
P.S stay strong and good luck

[Huk]

As someone who lost his father to suicide, I tell you - don't blame yourself.

Your friend's decision was his, and his alone. Unless some bully or another kind of a-hole pushed him to it, no one is to blame.