I can't catch a damn break · 2:44pm Sep 10th, 2019

If its not one thing its something else and I am beginning to come to my wits end. It seems like every single time I turn around I have a no issue that involves money or my living situation and I dunno wtf to do anymore. I don't have a job still and don't feel any closer to finding one that will give me purpose and drive to wanna really get out of this rut I find myself in because the more I sit in this place the worse things seem to get and I cannot take much more.

If you need a brief overview of whats going on? I am living in a half shitty half decent rooming house in Newark NJ making only $220 a week off unemployment and recently I've had trouble letting my money stack up and build because my sister and my mother keep on asking me to send them money for things and the amount of time I have to wait for them to pay me back ends up conflicting with other bills and needs of mine which help me live and stay mentally stable living where I do and honestly it isn't even much.

Those who have spoken to me a long time know I'm a stoner and given its not exactly legal in NJ and getting a medical card is a lot harder than one makes it out to be? I have to spend $20 about every 3 or 4 days to get an 8th which tends to go pretty fast when you suffer from the following issues:

1.) Crippling joint pain

2.) Depression

3.) Anxiety

4.) Insomnia

5.) Lack of appetite

6.) Nausea

Now you are entitled to your opinion and YES I have tried therapy and all that. It doesn't work and I have other methods of coping like gaming and of course my writing however even with my writing often times I feel I need to smoke first because a lot of times I have trouble clearing my head slowing down and thinking properly about story ideas and such.

Now to give you a scope of my issue here is a basic gist of what I gotta pay for each month to ensure I can survive.

1.) Rent: $500

2.) Cell Phone: $30(as of recently)

3.) Food: (Varies but often times I gotta eat out)

4.) Weed: $20-$30(depends who I buy it from and how much)

5.) Misc: varies depending on whats happening

Anyway long story short is? I need help and I am still looking for a job so I can help myself. Any aid would be appreciated and most of what anyone of you would send me would go towards my rent. Any other expenses I can and will handle myself. I just have this as a backup in case all else fails because the last thing I want is to lose where I am living and have to move back in with family because that is something I never wanna do again after all the shit I've had to put up with all my life with them.

So here is my Paypal Link if you want it and again I appericate any and all aid. Thank you

paypal.me/MidknightRouge93

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