I'm Finally Asking For Help. · 9:33am Sep 1st, 2019
Hey fimfiction.
You all have been my readers, you've followed my stories, you've been with me on my journeys, and you've helped me through a lot of rough spots. Most of the time, I use my blogs as an attempt to vent my problems, or get help for others who need it, but this time... I'm asking for help for me. And that's... A first, really.
I'm living in a powder keg that can explode at any time. My house is a war zone every day. My previous posts can tell you quite a bit about that. But I'm done with it. I'm tired of being here and being unhappy when there's a better life for me out there. There has to be something more than watching grown men go at each other and me every day. I've never wanted anything more than I have the ability to finally be free of my house, and free of my fear.
I've started a go fund me, and you guys can read the fuller story there. I don't really know what I expect from this particular post. Just that it gets seen, and the link is shared maybe. Much as I hope donations will come, I feel like they won't because I'm asking for myself and not somebody else. I always think it will come across as selfish. And on some level it is, maybe, to ask that of others. But I don't know what else to do.
My clinic is trying to get me set up with a job for people with disabilities like me, but I'm already in the negative financially. I can barely pay my bills as it is, and if I can't do that how on earth will I be able to save up and get a home of my own? My husband got fired from his job, so I can't count on him. My Dad lost his job too, and my mom singlehandedly supports my household. I don't see my friends anymore, and none of them are in a position to help me either. I've gone to job interviews and been turned away, and I'm still putting myself out there. I'm praying my labors there aren't fruitless. But in the meantime, I don't know what else I can do but ask for help. If you can't donate, share. If you don't share... Well maybe send good vibes my way, or prayer, or whatever you all believe in.
I'm sorry to ask so much of you all. But I don't know where else to turn. Every door I've looked to for a way out has slammed shut on me. I've tried the windows, and they're shut. I really don't know what else I can do at this point except ask for help or admit defeat. And defeat isn't an option.
I want to thank everyone on fimfiction who has shown support toward my work. You all are the most amazing fandom, and I am so grateful to know so many good people from this website. Even when you didn't know it, sometimes your supportive comments got me through some really bad nights when I thought I was going to be trapped forever. But you guys reminded me that there are still people who think I'm worth something even when I didn't believe it. Thank you all for that.
Here's the link. https://www.gofundme.com/f/cloeshome&rcid=r01-156732923927-db797a1a0ac34ecc&pc=ot_co_campmgmt_w
Thank you guys, for everything.
Love Always,
Cloe
I gave 100$ hopp it helps.
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Thank you so much. I really don’t have words for how much it means to know that somebody cared enough to help me. I don’t know what else I can say except thank you so much for not only your donation but making me feel like I actually matter. I know it isn’t much but, if you ever need a commission done, I’ll do it for free. Thank you so much.
Would you look at that, I have 70 dollars, unfortunately I don’t have a savings account, so I can’t donate.
I would if I could though.
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I appreciate that you even read the post, friend. That’s all I could ask.
There's nothing wrong in reaching out for help for yourself. It's actually a sign of how much you value yourself as much as you value those you've supported. Having self-worth is very important. So definitely be proud of how you yourself know you are more than what your situation may be.
Would you take a commission for assistance?
I wish I hadn't fallen so far behind on your stories. I've meant to go back and read up on some of your anthologies but just keep getting other life things in the way. :(
Do know that I, along with others, wish you well. I do hope good fortune comes your way and that you are able to finally get that opportunity you are seeking.
Speaking of, if you do have a disability / special need / limitation, are you a part of your area's Vocational Rehabilitation Program? Some can help with moving costs and initial rent if you work with them towards finding work. The one here in PA helped me and I was very thankful for that as, being legally and, now, totally blind, help is expensive and any help you can get is definitely good help. :)
Sending good vibes your way. Wish I could do more
I can't donate to anyone as much as I'd want to. But I hope your situation gets better nonetheless. I'll try to tell some people to try and help you out if they can.
I can’t give you money but the very least I can do is help spread the word about your situation.
I sincerely hope the debt gets paid off and the future becomes brighter for you.
Don't give up, you and your family can make it.