I'm a whole-ass mess. I need to recognize disaster before it happened like it happened at BronyCon. So because I love you all and want it to be good not-last-second-half-assed Live Stream, the FimFiction Feghoot Festival Results are now Happening Aug · 2:33am Aug 16th, 2019
I'm a whole-ass mess. I need to recognize disaster before it happened like it happened at BronyCon. So because I love you all and want it to be good not-last-second-half-assed Live Stream, the FimFiction Feghoot Festival Results are now Happening August Friday 23rd. I love you all and hope you understand that I don't want to have another breakdown Like I had at BronyCon trying to get everything ready by tomorrow.
I still haven't written my BronyCon blog, because well I would not be me if any writing came without massive amounts of procrastination involved. But when I do, one of the themes I will dwell upon is that when I try to do things under non-optimal sleep conditions and I try to cram too much that I'm doing in at the last minute, things invariably go very very badly. I already called in sick to work today. I don't want to try to cram a bunch of stuff in and do that again tomorrow. I am so sorry, but I'm going to do the Feghoot results announcement on Friday the 23rd now. I love you all, and I want to give you a great live stream, with a bunch of people involved and everyone knowing what's going on. Right now, I was planning on figuring stuff out yesterday but I didn't get around to it because I'm a whole ass mess. Do not worry, all the prize money is set aside, that is not an issue. I just I'm not in a good mental place right this second and I don't think trying to get all the last-minute pieces of the Live Stream, including the fact that I need to obtain a webcam because none of my three devices for various reasons can stream right now. Look I'll give this blog a basic overpass but I'm doing this all voice to text and just know I love you all so much and I'm so glad this contest worked and I'm sorry that it's taking so long to get the results but I think you will agree my mental health is more important than getting the results tomorrow instead of in another week so I absolutely 100% promise that the Fimfiction Feghoot festival results will be announced Friday 23rd of August at 7 p.m. Pacific Time 10 p.m. eastern time. I love you all, goodnight. Now that my paycheck came in, I'm going to go eat. And to make clear that is with the prize money set aside I wasn't touching that.
Oh also a truly massive shitstorm happened on my facebook over the weekend that's a lot of why I'm not doing so hot mentally. My boyfriend said he's taking a break from me until I get my shit together and he's a whole-ass person with every right to do that but obviously that's a not-to-hot blow to me.
it's fine, your health and life should take top priority! best luck to you
Ouch. Dude that fucking sucks. Take your time, relax. There's nothing going on here that takes precedence over IRL stuff.
You really need to quit using Facebook.
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Look, I've taken several highly addictive drugs and stopped them because they did little for me, but I can't seem to quit facebook.
Good luck.
I'm so sorry you're going through such a hard time man.
The contest can wait, so don't worry about that. As the airplane mantra says: "Put the oxygen mask on yourself first."
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There's something very wrong about the state of User Experience design that this is the case. Yikes. I'm sorry man.
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Nah fam they design that shit like that on purpose and I can’t blame them. I mean they want people to be using their product as much as possible. That’s not even a complaint I have about capitalism or anything. That’s just good business strategy.
Got to get them dopamine hits, Amirite?
Have you tried doing less drugs and masturbation?
I'm serious. You need to learn delayed gratification if you want any chance at fighting these demons.
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2 out of 2 of your weird internet moms agree.
I'd add delayed and a constructive gratification. You'll get dopamine hits from writing a good story or finishing a successful contest too, and those things build and maintain a community of people who will support your next efforts and give you your next hit. It's a positive cycle instead of a negative one.
(Not saying you should do the live stream today, just that it's an example of where to direct your need for a rush.)
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The only drug that is possibly deleterious for me is my legally prescribed ADHD medication. With it, I’m able to focus and get more things done, but I also masturbate a lot more. Other mind altering substances I only consume once or twice a month and in moderation. If anything, they help my psyche by helping me evaluate and process things. I’m not on my ADHD medication right now because I ran out of it because I haven’t had insurance since April, so really the only reason I’m masturbating much right now is due to stress.
I really do appreciate you looking out for me from the bottom of my heart, weird Internet moms. This fandom and I believe life as a whole is really about looking out for each other. Thank you. <3
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Also he replied to you and tagged me twice because of course he did.
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Lol oops. Fixed.