It's been a while, hasn't it? · 7:39pm Aug 14th, 2019
I just realized the last time I'd put out a blog was back in April. So, let's fix that.
I have still been writing, although it's been a bit rough. It's easier to write Twilight when worries and fears consume you. Also easier to write Luna when you think everything is your fault. Celestia's mindset works wonderfully when you feel the weight of the world on your shoulders. So, those work well, but it's so much harder to write Pinkie when you can't get into a happy and carefree state of mind.
Update on my general goings on... While we had intended on getting my wife back to work asap, she had more going on than I originally thought. Originally I thought the problem was just migraines, we had a med increased, that got that under control. But she was still exhausted, and that made her vertigo worse, so we checked thyroid, and that was low, had that increased.
To my mind, problem solved, we've nailed it all down, but the neurologist wanted her to see an ENT doc because we've never tracked down why she's always dizzy. It's kind of hilarious in hindsight, but apparently her vertigo is primarily caused by low blood flow to the base of her skull, and of course, it gets worse with migraines. Explains why she'd wake up in the morning and feel dizzy, then try to drink coffee and have a cigarette to see if that helped and would feel so much worse. They were constricting her blood vessels! So now we have her on meds to open those up, and while the extra blood flow makes her feel a little spacey, it's not the same thing as vertigo.
This means we can maybe finally get her some backpay on disability, since they denied her claim when we pulled her out of work for migraines. Migraines are not continuous, but vertigo is. I didn't want to claim her out for that because frankly, vertigo has just been a fact of life lately, and disability companies don't want to hear "I don't know what's causing it, just pay her forever." They get a bit upset, they want tests and reasons and "how do you plan to fix this" and I was hoping more for "Can't we just get a pill to make the dizzy stop?" So... yeah, should have gone to the ENT much sooner. But having seen him, we are now armed with a diagnosis, which will quell the hunger of the neurologist and will grant us the coveted 'work release form', as well as the much desired 'disability and leave forms'.
Upshot of all of this is we've been maintaining the last couple months by drawing on my steady income and using hardship withdrawals from retirement accounts. I even have a hardship request going with my company, but it won't come in time to pay rent. On the up side, that money will still come when it gets approved, but I need to figure out how to avoid eviction in the meantime.
I have ways to cover rent, but... needless to say, these are expensive, abusive ways, and I will use them to avoid losing my home, but woof, it's gonna hurt climbing back up. Thankfully, I am finally feeling like the climb up is not just possible, but inevitable. I've been clinging to the edge of a cliff one handed for so long now that adding a second hand will feel like I am flying to the top. My wife has been going nuts being at home, and she wants to help out. It's just been the fact that we don't have a proper release for her that stops us, as the job would immediately fire her if the absences aren't accounted for.
This is not me asking you collectively to pay my rent, but if you do have some resources you could spare towards that end, I will put them to good use.. And if you don't, well wishes are appreciated. I need more positive energy in my life, it helps me write Pinkie better.
I do have a chapter of Princesses being edited, so more soon of that coming. Meanwhile, I need to get back to fashionhorse and shygirl on an airship. Love you all.
Sorry I dont have more to send(may be able to send more in a few days when I get paid)...also I dont live too far from you. I'm in the SE Houston area. Only a 3hr drive or so. :)
On a lighter note...hell of an animation. Creator?
Who woulda thought buttered marshmallows would be so good?
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Have some sauce. The creator is Fishmira, he does some fantastic work both SFW and not. This is probably one of my all time favorite Flarity images. I have a gallery of them, but be warned if you're not prepared to see explicit and safe mixed. I feel comfortable linking the gallery because you will only see what your own filters let you see.
Hey Steel. Best wishes for your wife and hurray for, well, any sign of light at the end. I really wish I could go back to supporting you the way I did and I'm almost ashamed that I didn't. Can't, really. Still can't. Almost, because I'm still a reasonable person and a voice in my head tries to be soothing, explaining how things are still difficult, yadda yadda who cares.
I'm waiting for the day I can return to patreon and support my favourite creators again - like you. Until then, however, I can only wish you the best. And though that might count for something, I'm still sorry.
I hope she get's better. I hope you do, too.
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Never, ever apologize for being unable to support someone else. That's just silly. If helping me hurts you, nothing was accomplished. Thank you for your well wishes, and thank you for everything you did and wish you could continue to do.
There's no way I can help right now, I honestly wish I could. I hope things get better soon, Steel.
No need to even say, Nova. And don't fret. I got this one way or another.
I was hoping to pass a bit more than that but....you know....Glad to help when I can
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Honestly, anything helps out. I'm in a much better position this time. Thank you!