What is going on with me? · 4:30pm Jul 1st, 2019
Hey everyone.
So yeah, it's me. I'm done with just lurking around I suppose, and I came out to say that I'm awful at keeping promises.
First off comes the obligatory "what happened/what is happening":
So, remember the last blog post that I published almost a year ago now? Yea, things changed a whole lot since then.
As some of you might know, I'm in Australia. I have been here for a few months now, just enjoying life away from all the shit that's happening in the world. I don't know if I have any Australian readers, but if I do, let me say that you're country is fucking beautiful and you should treasure it.
Anyways. I originally intended to stay here longer, but things are happening in my family that require me to cut it short and head back home this month. It's all a bit of a shit show to be honest. Once I'm back I'll have to start managing the family farm, which means a whole lot of headache. I don't know whether I'll be able to push out a chapter before this year ends or not to be honest. I know I said, time and time again, that I would start writing again, but the problem is that I didn't have the time nor the energy to really sit down for an hour a day and get shit written down. It's honestly annoying me greatly as I really love writing. At least I think I do. I don't know anymore.
Which bring me to my next point; motivation.
If there's one thing I'm really lacking right now (not speaking about the future) it is motivation. I think every writer finds himself in this little hell hole eventually. I know for a fact that there are still people out there waiting for the next chapter, and I know it isn't fair to expect those patient souls to keep commenting on what might as well be a dead story for all they know. But if there's no comments, no interaction with my readers, I start questioning whether I'm writing this story for me or for my readers. And I don't want to write stories for myself. That's just weird.
I also feel as if my skills have decreased drastically. Maybe that's just because I can't seem to get into the right mindset anymore, but it's frustrating to the point where I don't even want to look at the edit button anymore. Every time I actually try and sit down to write, I feel like every single word I type down is just utter garbage, which also might be because I don't agree with the topic of the story and where I was going to take it anymore. I mean, I look back at some of the chapters and just cringe and ask myself why I decided that it was a good idea to write that down.
Alright, anyways, enough of this crap. You might ask yourself "what's the point of this blog post?". Honestly, I don't know. Maybe it's just because I feel like I needed to vent and explain myself. Maybe I just thought I left you guys in the dark for too long. I honestly have no idea. But I just realized that if I put half as much effort into my writing sessions as I did with this blog post, I would actually get shit done...
If you see this blog post, and for some reason decided to read through it; are you still looking forward to the next chapter, or have you completely forgotten that this story even existed?
I am still looking forward to the next chapter🙂
I always looking forward to seeing new chapters.
Sometimes I reread the whole book just to refresh my memory of what was going on.
I'd look forward to a new chapter
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Thanks for the comments. Glad to hear that there are still people out there looking forward to it. :)
I'm still excited for the next chapter, this is one of my favorite stories