Tired thoughts.

It’s a bit after one in the morning where I am. I should be sleeping and I’m tired but I don’t completely want to. Perhaps some late night writing will do the trick, all this done in one draft.

I’m not motivated for things. I know I should do them but I don’t want to often. I finished my third year of college on Tuesday and I need a job and I don’t want to look for one but I still have to. I’ve got to write things and edit things, and sometimes I can’t do it even though I definitely should. I can’t even sell my old textbooks right now for some stupid reason. And I screw around on the internet and listen to music instead.

That coupled with some stress in my life I won’t be elaborating on is making me feel kind of down. Maybe that and depression? I’m almost certain I have it, and so did a counselor I once had. But anyway. Usually I’m alright. Maybe it’s the onset of summer, since I’ve usually been able to do my schoolwork and I don’t have any now.

I listen to music, though. To the extent at which I feel that if I didn’t actively listen to music at some point in the day then the day has been wasted. I’m also visiting my grandparents this weekend along with my dad, aunt, and cousin. I took a walk to the elementary school in the neighborhood, saw my cousin fishing, went to a park, and came back. That was real nice. Especially since it was a decent temperature and the sun was out. That with music in my ears cheered me up considerably.

Maybe I need to do that kind of thing more. Usually when I listen to music I do it indoors. It’s summer and I should take advantage of that.

I don’t know, just some tired ramblings from a fool who has no idea what he’s doing or why. I’m sure plenty of people have felt similarly.

I should have thoughts for Endgame up soonish and perhaps the last three Hitchcock films I’ve seen but haven’t talked about. Still gonna be working on myself too.