Slightly more serious update this time.

I've gone back on the String Bean fic I've been talking about, went and altered it at concept level, so what I have of it at the moment will need to be rewritten.

Aside from that, been having some trouble keeping the work up. Stuff's happened recently, unrelated to the show (last thing I saw was the RariDash episode in S8, I think), and it's thrown a spanner into the gearworks in general.

You might know I came into this fandom on the back of some mental problems. Nothing serious, mind, but enough to hamper functioning. I've never really felt like 'myself' in this fandom, and that's got nothing to do with the fandom itself, I've just managed to get productive in here and stay positive, for a while. But this is a different kind of problem I'm facing now. Not quite as heavy, but certainly more confusing for someone like me.

I can't seem to picture myself being happy anymore.

Now, don't go throwing the usual telephone numbers this way, it's not what it sounds like, it is what it is. When I think of what I'm going to do, my future, my goals, my dreams, even, the image I get of me having attained it no longer includes me being happy. I honestly can't visualise the feeling of pride or reward or whatever, even if I picture my end goal.

So that's an odd problem to be dealing with all of a sudden. I know what prompted it, I know what I'm going to need to do in response to the prompt, but I don't know how to make the problem go away. And that means I don't know how to motivate myself for, well, any of the stuff you guys know me for. It's only popped up a few days ago, maybe it'll go away on its own.

Progress may be slow, is what I'm trying to say here. But the concept has changed for the better, and next update will probably be a preview. And, as I've said before, after that I'll be focusing on the Niko stories and maybe editing my Pharynx fic, so don't be too surprised if there's an even longer hiatus between publications, I do intend to finish what I said I'd finish, eventually. The Bastion trilogy is not cancelled yet. Worst-case scenario you'll at least get the aftermath story.

In the meantime, did you know Voltaire is still going?

Cracker out.