Over Time · 10:54pm Mar 12th, 2019
A long time has passed since I've posted anything here. I doubt almost anyone sees what I write, but I like to imagine the Universe as a constant spectator -- if a tree falls and no one is around, the Universe hears it.
I'm wondering if I want to try my hand at writing again. For a very long time I was too shy to write much. I'm still shy, worried about criticism and making goofs. But, maybe I can find it in myself to enjoy writing anyway, without always looking forward to some abstract time in the future when I'm "better at writing". Won't happen without practice, and the journey is more important than the destination in this case anyway.
If I imagine myself as a pure optimist, I don't have anything to lose from trying except time. (And, well, dignity maybe, but that just seems to hold people back, for better or worse.)
On the note of "dignity", I'm occasionally embarrassed of what I could have written before, too embarrassed to even check what my writing is like, and thus leaving my opinion of it defaulted to that state of embarrassment. I almost want to delete most of the older stuff. I wonder if others get like that too.