It was the best of times... It was the worst of times. · 12:31am Dec 27th, 2018
First off let me just say if you want a happy blog this isn't it (sadly)
Christmas is a magical season, one of 2 or 3 times a year I can manage to visit my mom and her husband.
It's been a source of happiness and joy since I moved out at 15 years (more than half my life now) I've looked forward to seeing them, the dog (a Aussie shepard-border collie mutt that's too cute and smart for his own good) with the bonus of snow every year at Christmas (seriously, there's been blizzards on Christmas Day every year I've visited them at their current home.)
But this year wasn't so happy.
My mom's husband (my step dad I suppose) has Alzheimers and has gone from the epitome of Santa, happy, jolly and full of holiday spirit to a man who unironically wears a "bah-humbug" hat and only reverts that around small children.
My mom? Her memory is shot and she's in denial about it, she's having occasional pain in her head that scares the shit out of me, her mental capacities seem questionable and she's probably about a half dozen steps from being legally blind and unwilling to go for a surgery on her eye that from what she says is probably not something that should be put off.
I'm scared, I'm hurt and worried to all hell.
When I had a honest and frank discussion about them needing to consider moving back to where doctors and specialists aren't an hour drive my mom insists they'll be fine (she also checked with me on if I wanted certain things I consider family heirlooms)
I love my mom and despite what it would look like to most outsiders I care deeply for her. I feel like I'm betraying myself and her by looking forward to going home tomorrow morning.
I'm not fishing for sympathy, I'm not asking for donations, I'm not even looking for advice. I just needed to get this off my chest. I think I'm going to go read something to cheer myself up... Maybe A taste of the good life
Suggestions of light and/or happy fics would be appreciated for the train ride home tomorrow.
Shit, I'm sorry to hear. Alzheimer's is quite possibly the worst ruiner of lives in the modern era. I mean, many diseases destroy their victims, but few of them do it while the sufferer is still around. Good thoughts.
As for more cheerful fics, just finished reading Chrysalis Saves Hearth's Warming and it was pretty sweet.
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Yeah, my mom struggles to deal with her husband now. He's become controlling, possessive, angry, self centered... Honestly it's almost like he's the exact opposite from how he was 10 years ago when he proposed to my mom. I can't help but feel sorry for her, he's thankfully not violent towards her (but he certainly tosses things around in frustration) but he can't go for an hour without being angry and upset with someone or something (including himself)
that's seriously rough
it's from the middle of this year, but if you haven't read it, I'd recommend https://www.fimfiction.net/story/195005/chrysalis-kidnaps-rainbow-dash-for-10-minutes
This one I recall as being pretty silly
- MLP: FiM
- Comedy
- Random
Or tries to, anyway. Turns out, coming up with emphatically awful jokes is a lot easier than telling them.This is my favorite OC ever.
- MLP: FiM
- Comedy
- Random
Princess Lunchtime Luster, the Princess of the early afternoon, is tired of being neglected.And some mathematical silliness
- MLP: FiM
- Comedy
- Slice of Life
In which Twilight Sparkle and Starlight Glimmer explore the concept of infinity with the help of an infinite number of Pinkie Pies.