An Update · 3:55pm Nov 11th, 2018
Hey all,
I just wanted to make a quick post to say that Retrograde's taking longer to work on due to some unexpected stuff popping up since the last chapter was posted.
In September, my grandfather's health started declining, and given that two people in our family this year passed away due to cancer, they had him do some tests. As completely surreal as it seems, he was confirmed to, in fact, have cancer. A pretty nasty form of lymphoma, and things aren't looking super great in that department. He's going through chemotherapy right now, and has been since around the middle of October. Still, given that, while it's treatable, there's still the possibility that he'll kick the bucket before the end of 2019, and that's being extremely generous.
The past few cancer deaths were relatively removed from me in terms of how close I was to them. This one is a little different, as I'm sure is obvious. While I will say that these circumstances are leaving me more indisposed than I would like, there's aspects about it I don't really want to get into, as they are extremely personal. Needless to say, I've once again found myself in a position where I'm either spending time with my grandmother, since this whole thing has been super hard on her for a number of reasons, or just being exhausted by the whole thing.
I realize how phony this might sound, considering not 6 months ago I had a great uncle pass away due to a form of cancer (to be honest, I don't remember the specific kind of cancer it was), but unlike last time, I have to regularly see the one with cancer, because of how close I am with his wife. It's a very different kind of reality for me than the last two, in more ways than one. Again, I won't get into it, because it's extremely personal.
I'm trying to get some time to myself so I can work on my sections of Chapter 6, but I can't guarantee how soon that will be. I'm aiming for them to be done before a week from today, but I can't promise anything. Sorry to all of the fans of Retrograde, but it's been a really rocky year for me, and unfortunately it's not slowing down.
Its okay. I understand how it is to lose an important family member. Take all the time you need.
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Honestly, I'm not bothered by people dying, it's more just dealing with stuff like this, again, for the third time in a year. It's hard for a bunch of other reasons, but I'm not one to get super choked up about the idea of people dying. It's more "helping my family deal with it" that has me so drained.