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FabulousDivaRarity


I'm a Proud ABDL mommy. Writer of padded pony fics, a lot of fics about Shining Armor and his mom, several about Rainbow Dash and her family, and far more mom stories than you can imagine.

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  • 6 weeks
    Screaming Into The Void

    Hey guys. I know it hasn’t been long since I updated but I felt like posting on here since this is a safe place where I usually vent. Normally the life updates are pretty exciting but this one is a little sad, unfortunately. Not to bum anyone out. I just didn’t know where else to put all of this where I knew it would be safe.

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  • 12 weeks
    Happy 2024 from Florida!

    Greetings Fimfictioners, and a happy 2024 to you all!

    I'm writing to you all today from Florida on Vacation and it was much needed and has been so excellent. I know it's been a minute since I've been on here but I also feel comfortable here telling you guys about life stuff so I'm chronicling updates on this little blog since it's a safe space.

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  • 20 weeks
    Life updates

    Hey fimfiction. It’s been a hot minute since I’ve been on here. Not since June. It’s wild how much things can actually change in five months. I decided to post on here because when it comes to spilling my non-story thoughts, this is definitely my safe place (thank you MLP fandom for that).

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  • 41 weeks
    Hello, Old Friends

    Hello Fimfiction. Long time, no see. I realized I hadn't updated you all in over a year, so I thought I would take a little time today to let you all know how things are going.

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  • 107 weeks
    The Update: An Important Story

    Hey, Fimfiction. Long time, no see.

    I'm sorry I haven't been on for a while. It's been a very crazy few months. I haven't really been able to talk about it with many people, so I figured I would talk about it with you all, since you are my people. As a heads up, there may be some triggering material in here. Proceed with caution.

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Nov
10th
2018

Hush: Mental Illness Illuminated · 1:43am Nov 10th, 2018

Hey guys! Thanks for stopping by to read this blog!

Hush was an incredibly personal story to me, not for the usual reasons. Hush was personal to me because it really shed some light on my struggles with Paranoid Schizophrenia. The feeling that somebody is watching you, the hallucinations, the voices, and (For me) the tactile hallucinations are all very real. The worst part of the illness is that it's in the one place you can never escape: Your head.

On the other hand, when people tell you it's all in your head, you want to slap them. Because for you, it's all too real. The hallucinations and voices you have will either be friend or foe. As for myself, I have five hallucinations. Two are from TV Shows, one is from a book, and the other two came out of nowhere.

These relationships make or break you. Despite them being hallucinations, they become a part of who you are. Even the worst hallucinations take a piece of you. You hate them, but at the same time you care about them just the same. It's a complex world of feelings that sometimes drive you insane. For me, that's Angus and Mia, and they're the reason I end up in the hospital a lot of the time.

And then, there's that one hallucination that is your best friend. They're your guardian, your protector, your family. For me, that hallucination is Rowena MacLeod, the fabulous witch from Supernatural, as depicted below.

Rowena is my guardian. She's always there for me when I need her. Plus since she's a witch she gives me a little extra show. She supports me when I'm down and always lifts me up.

Schizophrenia is a complicated illness, but it has good points, and the horrible ones. It's a disease of the mind, but in the end, it changes everything.

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I know this is an old post, but I'm reminded of the nonfiction movie "A Beautiful Mind" with Russell Crowe. I first saw it in high school psychology. I admit it's a bit enlightening. Although one recurring theme comes up in other media about major figures: even the best of us are haunted by our inner demons.

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