Random Ramblings CCCXXVII · 2:29pm Oct 16th, 2018
IN WHICH I DID THINGS
Hello! Sorry it's been awhile. I've been busy. Here's new Laura Brehm as my apology.
If you'll allow, I'll explain my absence after the jump. I do have Pony-stuff to discuss too.
Okay, first the Pony stuff. As you may already know… or not… I've been working on three different stories. I hope to publish two of them by the end of the month. One of them WILL be published on Halloween -- second year in a row. Not sure if I'll make this a yearly thing like how I always publish a Mayor Mare story on January 20th, but who knows. Anyway, I just completed the initial draft and wanted to let y'all know that I can guarantee something of mine will see publication within about a fortnight.
The second story is my rewrite of the final story in the "Recovery + Shipping" arc. I've actually rewritten it from the ground up -- I didn't even look at the original draft, so I'm curious how different it is. I've finished two out of the three chapters, but the last one is difficult as it gets into the hot & heavy stuff I'm not confident about writing. I'll try my best, but don't be surprised if I PM you saying "Help me help me pleeeeeeaase!!! 
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Because of those two, I've put off the third story yet again. I want this fucking albatross to fly again, since I never shot it. It just sits in my room, occasionally shitting on the floor and squawking to remind me of its presence. It'll get done. I just work slow. How my two readers put up with my snail-speed, I have no idea.
After two months of waiting, I'm finally getting my home re-sided. Guys arrived about half an hour ago. They were supposed to start Friday but were delayed by rain and Home Depot screwing them over on a crucial piece of equipment. It's going to be by far my biggest expense this year, but it needed to happen -- my old siding is cheap, has minimal insulation, and is literally flaking off in spots, plus the north side is literally turning green from mildew.
Not sure how long it'll take to get the job done. I assume about a week or so. I'm paying for the job not by the hour, and the weather should be fine, so I really don't care too much about timeline. It was the same with the electrical work back in May -- that took six days (not counting a break on Sunday), and the only reason it didn't take seven is because their supervisor told them to hurry it up; I would have been fine with them going one more day instead of putting in that twelve-hour day at the end since, again, I paid for the job.
On a sadder note, October 13th was the first anniversary of my ex-girlfriend gettin' hitched and then promptly ghosting me. Given how much of a Halloween fangirl she is, no shock she wanted to get married on Friday October 13th -- she was also born on a Friday the 13th (not in October). I spent that evening trying to get drunk -- didn't work as my alcohol tolerance is surprisingly high even on my crazy pills that explicitly say NOT to drink alcohol -- and contemplating whether to continue living. I decided to stay alive for the time being because I've got too much going on to die just yet. Also, I've only gotten some of my affairs in order, and I need to double-check on those.
Apparently, almost NO ONE that I know has talked to her in months. My understanding is she's decided to literally purge the years 2008-2016 from her memory. I refuse to do the same. I refuse to move on without adequate closure.
See, I have severe rejection issues (she knew this), so ghosting me is literally the worst form of punishment. I refuse to accept it.
Some days I want to anonymously send my ex an avocado in the mail. She's allergic to avocados (if she eats them). Yes, I'm petty and vindictive; I've never pretended otherwise.
I met a girl during my concert-hopping who's a lot like my ex but without a lot of her baggage and also, well, younger and prettier (similar body type though). She's also far cooler than I could ever hope to be.
Nearly all of the friends I have left are big Halloween fanatics. I'm not. Why? Because October 31st is my dad's birthday. He's spent the last two years in remission from cancer and dealing with early-stage liver failure -- both 90% his own fault (smoking and drinking for nearly half a century when your family already has a history of cancer will do that). Point is, to me, Halloween has always been about me spending time with my dad -- any parties were secondary or skipped altogether.
Even if I'm not the son he would have preferred, I'm all he's got, since he managed to tick off his stepson (of whom I am supremely jealous).
I fear that many of the friends I have left will drop me because I'm not a Halloween maniac.
The girl I've had a mad crush on for 20 years (yes, I crush on multiple girls at once -- however, unlike my dad and his brother, I've never cheated on a girlfriend -- my ex, to her credit, dumped me when she did specifically because she didn't want to cheat on me) told me she would gladly hang out with me if she didn't live so far away.
Maybe I'm not as repulsive as I think I am.
Well, I think this is a good place to stop rambling. I need to throw on some clothes and check on the siding guys out of sheer damn curiosity. Please look forward to my upcoming stories!
Peace out!
Looking forward to rereading the fic.
Congrats on getting the residing done. <3
I'd never want to be ghosted by someone I cared about a lot, and it has happened. :( Especially when there is no closure it makes you wonder, "did they ever really care about you at all?"
Halloween sounds like such an awful time for you. :(
Oh it's not even close to done. They just started this morning. It's gonna take probably a week or more. They had to leave early today to order lumber since my old window-beam thingys need to be replaced. They took off some of the old soffit and all of the cheap fake shutters. My home looks even more White-trash than usual.
Whenever my dad shuffles off this mortal coil, sure (he's fine for the time being). But right now it's mostly my own paranoia and extreme fear of rejection talking.
My ex-girlfriend kicked me to the curb for, among many other sins, not being into the same things as her to the same degree – I don't do video games right now because I spend my money on other hobbies, bills, and necessary home improvements; I could never get into Pokémon; and I'm too much of a control freak to do tabletop. Plus my meh-ness over Halloween (despite the fact Fall is my favourite season). What's to stop anyone else from cutting me loose for the same reasons?
I had to beg a friend of mine not to defriend me today because she's antivax (she has an autistic kid and isn't convinced a vaccine didn't cause it, and I think may have had an adverse reaction herself) and I went on a nasty rant against antivaxxers. It's the only major thing I disagree with her on. We reconciled.
The link hasn't changed. You can read it at your leisure. If you're interested in the other one, let me know and I'll PM you.
And so the world progresses. Looking forward to your completed (and readership-worthy in your eyes) stories. I think honestly from a statistical standpoint it isn't a great idea to publish on Halloween every year, though I suppose thematically it could be (especially given the unconventional nature of both your writing and your views on the date in question)
I'm probably gonna read it the same day it comes out, as I do follow you for updates, so it's no water off of my proverbial duck back. Pardon the mixed expression.
Glad your housework continues to crawl along. Much like the albatross it isn't quite time for it to die. I also thank you for reminding me of one of the only remaining good reasons to rent a place these days.