Disappointment · 7:38pm Oct 12th, 2018
Hello everybody. I've got some things to get off my mind, so I'm gonna start with this. I'm getting close to taking my A+ exam. I just have to take the Total Tester and Exam Compass. I'm currently studying the Pearson, but I've already covered that much. But as soon as I pass and I update my resume to get another job, I'm gonna save up to get an apartment for myself and my friend. Which leads me to this. I hope to commission somebody to animate a story that was deleted a year ago due to age difference. It's called A Mother's Love (I'm sure all of you remember that. If not, it's about the forbidden romance between a young Spike and Celestia). Because I can't publish it and I don't wanna get potentially suspended, I'm not going to publish it. I am, however, willing to write more of it on Google Docs and show it to someone when the time comes for it to be animated. This also leads me to hopefully get Revenge of the Shadow Pony animated someday, but that will be dealt with when the time is right.
Which also leads me to this. Were all our lives meant to be disappointments? Were we all meant to be born failures? I dropped out of college because I promised I would go to Job Corps with a friend (Well that, and I was unmotivated with college.). Then I left because I was a non-hacker. I went to UEI because my parents wanted me to get an education. I graduated, but I didn't learn much there. But I learned a month or so ago that a close friend of mine was homeless. We still talk to each other and I bring him over to play games and watch movies together (I often lose to him so many, so it could be ruled out as a given). His birthday's coming next week and I've already ordered a present for him. Which brings me to this. Are we not supposed to have what we want? Has everything been brought up as a lie and meant to serve only for the benefit of others? I still live with my parents and I still don't know for myself what life truly is for me. I don't really have many friends and I've never really been a social guy. I guess what I'm saying is were we never meant to be happy? I just wish I knew what to say for myself, but I'm so goddamned shy that I can't make up my mind on what's right and what's wrong.
I hope to someday live in Japan someday, but right now, I have to find a place for me and my friend to stay until we become famous on YouTube. But I'm still stuck in this rut and I'm doing everything I can to get out of it, but these things just keep teetering on my mind and I have no clue on how to respond to it all. I'm no fortune teller, but I hope that all of you know what you can say for yourselves and hopefully combat whatever it is you're all going through as human beings. But that's all I've gotta say. Let me know what you're thoughts are in the comment section down below and I'll see you on the other side.
Goul this all we can do, take everything step by step. I hope you and you're friend are doing well.