The show's giving me stage fright · 6:20pm Oct 10th, 2018
Remember what I said in the other blog post? About trepidation over watching the new episodes?
Yeah, that's hitting me like a truck right now.
Don't get me wrong - I'm eight minutes in to Horse Play, and I honestly think it's pretty good so far - or at least, I like what I've seen so far, or think that what I'm seeing so far is the stuff I should like, whatever.
But I'm just getting in my head really hard now. It's taken me half an hour to watch those eight minutes because i keep pausing and taking breaks, because the idea of watching more of the episode is freaking me out. Then I tell myself I'm being an idiot, try to get myself to calm down, get sort of okay with things. Then i watch another thirty seconds and I again start feeling like I can't do this I really can't.
I'm pretty sure that this degree is unnatural, and I'm pretty sure I can't really explain myself out of this one. I kind of want to see the end, don't get me wrong. I think I'll really like it. But I keep watching thirty second chunks, and then the idea of watching more just feels...honestly, kind of scary.
How do i get through to the ending of this, guys? How do i watch this, then watch the rest of the season? Because you have to believe me, this is way, way harder than it should be. And I don't want it to be. I want to be able to watch the show and enjoy it, not watch the show and feel anxious the whole time.
Would it help if I told you everything ends up okay in the end?
why is it freaking you out so much? i dont understand at all...
You have anxiety in general. You should consider seeing a doctor (seriously).
Yeah, if watching a TV show is freaking you out this much, maybe a Doctor could help.
But beyond that, sometimes... people lose interest in a show. I will admit it's not as good as it once was, but then what show is as good in its 8th season as it was int he first few? It's not a bad thing fi you don;t like the new episodes. You still like the old ones, and you can still write.
Update: Managed to watch the rest of the episode. Loved it. Still had to start-and-stop it until the last five minutes or so.
Mentioning this at the next therapy session. Thanks for the suggestions.
I'm sorry I couldn't offer any advice. I just didn't know what to say. Still, I'm glad you were able to get through the episode, and I hope you can resolve the issue soon. Ponies should be fun.
I mean, that's half the reason I still hate Lesson Zero. :B
Yeeeah, I don't really have much advice beyond "talk to a professional". Watching a cartoon shouldn't give you that much trepidation.