A dude I know has to wait for his girlfriend and I asked him how he does it, how he copes with waiting. He said: Each day I'm one step closer. That's what keeps me going.
But I don't care, I don't care that others doubt me. I'm not gonna sit and complain that it's unachievable. I'm doing my best and keeping all the hope in the world that one day the dream will come true. If I fail, I know I tried. If I get it, I know I earned it.
I'm angry at the world, at people, at the shitty people in it. I never show it, but deep down under my stoic face, I just feel rage. It fuels my workouts, it fuels my games, it's always there....Just this....Anger.