Life update

Haven't written more yet. I would have but as is my life is going this last week, I've been busy cleaning up and tossing stuff out and giving stuff to Goodwill. So my life is more manageable right now and that feels good and I wish I could write more but its tiring to spend hours and hours each day to clean out most of the upstairs. So I'm tired and now I have to hopefully get another part in my job search vocational rehab help that I've been getting since January.

Ironically I was going to get the job search done but for those who don't know how fun disability services are in the US- it's good cause I'm getting help now but I keep having to get reacquainted to new social workers cause either there's a lack of those or they shuffle through them quick cause I've have like ten people working on my one case in spurts over six years and its sort of depressing. Like I want to do stuff and I thought going to college was going to fix some of the issues but it's a bit harder than that. It's like I have the drive but my body is a factor that has to be put in its place, and also I have less skills than college made me believe. So here I am a year after graduation and it's like I've sort of stagnated in my personal life.

Thankfully I have writing to focus on cause otherwise my life would be a bit of a downer all things considered.

Good thing I like writing cause otherwise I don't know what I have besides that. Music talent? Sure but I have music and writing and that's it right now. Sure I can focus almost entirely on my writing due to having no job and getting enough to survive on with disability but it is surprisingly hard to get a job even with equal opportunity laws.

I'll get back to writing soon but the next few days will be quiet due to me having a job assessment.

Something I've wanted to get to and finish for three months cause the first run of job assessments is in three tries and I've had two complete immediately but the social worker I was working with got a new job and the whole thing fell through and it's kind of depressing.

Hope it goes well tomorrow and the next day. I don't know how I'll react with the job attempt.

I need to get a job or something cause it's boring otherwise.