I Have a Confession · 9:35pm Mar 30th, 2018
Hello, brothers and sisters. I am Madness and welcome to my kingdom.
I suppose some of you may or may not be wondering where I've been the past couple of days. Ever since my FIM-iversary, I've been pretty silent, have I? Well, um... That's because, on that very day, I had a realization that hit me hard and, ever since, I've been pretty dang down. I wasn't going to mention it here, at least not now, but I've done some thinking and I think I owe it to you guys. Thing is, I'm not as strong and happy as I make myself out to be. I put on that face because that's who I want to be, but the truth had to come out eventually. And I want to be real with you guys.
I'm depressed. I mean, I have serious depression. All the crap that has gone down in the past half year has really taken it's toll and now... here I am. I'm depressed, my anxiety is crazy, I feel sick (though that's in part due to me and Mom catching the flu); I just don't feel good at all. But let me assure you, I have by no means have had any suicidal thoughts nor have I self-harmed in any way. I wanna make that clear.
I've talked to my Mom about getting on antidepressants, but she wants me to try more natural, less extreme ways first. I agreed, but I am fairly certain I'll end up on the pill. Regardless, it's gonna be a few weeks at best before I get some good change and in that time, I won't be super active on here... or anywhere else for that matter. I'll still check on here daily and I'm still open to talk in PMs and such; honestly, talking with others has been good for me, so I'm up for it.
I'll be fine. Don't worry about me. Like I said, I'm not hurting myself and I am getting it fixed. Just gotta give it time. Love you guys and I hope you're having a great day.
Aaaand that's all for now. God bless you, bye bye.
Admitting you have a problem is the first step to fixing it. It shows strength you want to get help.
All the best, friend.
I suppose so...nevertheless, hope you get over that flu and try to fight the depression. Try doing things you enjoy. Heck maybe even try something ya haven't ever done! So long as you try it. And this advice might sound....kinda bad, but I am here to try and cheer ya up!
I am so sorry you are feeling so down. Life can be hard but things will get better in time. Just hang in there my friend. We got your back!
Cheer up, pal. Things will look up! Try watching some comedians and their shows on YouTube. For me, they're always funny!
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Thank you for the support and advice. I really appreciate it.
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I'm so sorry, let me know if there's anything I can do!
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Thank you, sister.
Well, just let me know if there's anything I can do.
*hug*
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Definitely go in for counselling and stuff and try that for a while before starting up on medications. I'm on antidepressants, and while that's not a bad thing, and they help me, I think that if I had caught on that I wasn't doing well earlier I could have beaten it a long time ago with the help of some counselling. I just let it go on for way too long before doing anything about it. I'm glad you're realizing it now, and admitting it to yourself. Don't be afraid to get help. Try counselling for a while, and if you still want to try medications, then do it, but don't stop counselling. Medications alone aren't treatment for this type of illness.
I hope you feel better soon.
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Thanks, guys.
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I tried counselling before I even knew for sure I was depressed. Doesn't really work when it's so inconsistant. Plus me and Mom are always stuck at the house all day since my Dad and brother both need the cars to go to work.
But thank you, my friend.