Jan
31st
2018
Wholesome Rage: On Being Well · 3:54am Jan 31st, 2018
Not something I thought would happen, actually, but it's given me enough context to write what it means to be well, and to actually understand for the first time just how fucked I was, because I didn't previously have that basis of comparison. I knew I was bad, yeah, but I didn't really have enough point of reference on how I could be feeling outside of short bursts of high strength medication.
These are uncharted waters to me, people, but it's helped me refine my maps of the reef I've gone through on the way in.
So this is me writing about that.
Good to hear! I wish you the best of luck in this uncharted territory!
I'm happy to hear that!
Yeah, getting turned into a newt can be disorienting.
Aaand I'm kidding.
Seriously, I'm glad that you are finding your way back a more level plane of mental health.
And instead of unhealthy rage, you now have wholesome rage
Good luck, nums
Real happy for you, thats wonderful news!
That's amazing news.
Good for you.
I'm glad you're doing so much better.
That was beautifully written. I don't think I can really express it properly, but I'm very happy for you, and so very relieved for you.
Given the turnaround from your justifiable certainty you'd be dead within a few years, I want to say something like "sweet Luna on a popsicle stick, this is a miracle," but it's really not.
It's you. The miracle is you.
You hung on, and pushed through, and came out the other side of what is probably the literal closest to the whole "valley of the shadow of death" thing that a modern first-world person can experience. And I'm damned glad you did. But right now? Take a moment to be proud. Because you've earned it.
Cheers~
Have fun having fun. Maybe someone else will learn a thing or two from you.
It is spectacularly good to hear you are feeling better.
Really glad to hear you're healing and feeling better.