Happy holidays to all... · 1:42am Dec 25th, 2017
...because I sure as heck ain't having a "happy" time 'round my neck of the woods, heh.
Small update while I have ya'lls attention: things more or less continue to be the same as in my previous update. Grandma's now lost both her legs though, but she soldiers on regardless. Still, docs both from here and the old country say she has a year or so left. As such, I've begun plans to see if I can have her travel stateside if nothing more than to have her kick the bucket in more an appropriate setting, and not the rundown squalor that my old country's become.
I've also come to the decision that perhaps it's time I gave up writing altogether. Don't get me wrong now, I still love writing. The issue is that I find myself having less and less motivation to actually sit down and write lately. That ain't even going into details regarding time management during workdays and the mess that is happening before my very eyes. As I mentioned in my earlier blog, unless ya'll want me to write the most miserable, cynical, and downright unpolished work (not that my standard work's any better, heh), I think its best that I pack-up shop and bid this whole affair a fine farewell. I mean, a good part of me doesn't want to, but what other choice do I really have? I mean, it's not like I'm some big-name individual in this here site. The time when I was has long passed me by (by almost 4 years, if I am to be honest here), and there is no way in hell that I'm recapturing any of that past fame without writing the next Fallout Equestria or Past Sins (both stories which I admit have great faults, but cannot be denied were hits in their time). I had a contender once upon a time, but If I want to be honest, I never even made it past the starting line with that one, for many reasons, namely a lack of actual skill.
So yeah, that's my news for the time being. I ain't going to hope for things to get better, because I know I'm now at that age where life only gets crappier with each passing year. That's the horrible reality of getting old. It's time to stop pretending and face the music I should have faced seven years ago, back when I was but a young lad just barely reaching his two decades of life.
Happy news years as well. I'll see ya'll for however long in 2018 I'm still able to be present.
Sad to hear about your grandma, but I’m genuinely happy that you’re actively seeking to lighten and better her last experiences in this crazy, crazy world of ours.
Sad to hear it, honestly.
I like cynicism, although it does seem to have become something of a staple nowadays (how blasé, right?), giving way to superfluous and superficial criticism. Modern cynicism is enlightened false-consciousness: we are acutely aware of the wool over our eyes but we say “fuck it! Wool is warm and cosy!”. Though, having followed you since The Great Beginning, I don’t think you’d disappoint.
(Also, the bolded part in parenthesis is a bold-faced lie.)
((Haha, get it? Bold because it’s bold! Yeah...))
This is a bullshit excuse and you know it and you’re better than it.
Ah, our self-criticism can be a bitch sometimes, eh?
I support... whatever your decision is. I still think you should keep writing... maybe not ponyfiction, but your own stuff. I personally like you and I think you are capable of great achievements. Honest.
Happy Yule.
I'm here to talk.
And you're a better writer than you'd think. And you know it.
~Skeeter The Lurker