Drunken Ramblings of a smut writer · 8:41am Dec 21st, 2017
So hey.
Yeah you readers. All of you men and ladies and boys too young to be on here. Yeah I'm pointing at you. Well pointing at a screen drunkenly as I work on a pony face mesh for my face mapping software.
Ugh...
Thank you.
I don't like getting all soppy and crap but when I drink and stuff well it happens.
Thanks.
I'm not the most interesting man or best writer on this site but damnit all you guys make me feel like one. Even if you all never meet me or boink me or whatever it means a lot to me.
I'm about to be 28 and been writing for a damn long time. I wrote science fiction and shite before I ever thought of writing smut. I wrote one book and never have finished another after that.
Most nights I sit at home worrying about bills, my dog, family, kids I will never be able to have and when that happens I drink. I haven't published a damn thing since February and even though I don't owe anyone my writing in a literal sense well...
I feel I should.
Call it temporary fulfillment but seeing you guys actually LIKE my stories makes me glad I haven't choked on a glock yet. I know, I know depression is overrated these days trust me I know.
But this is one of the only ways I can feel like I can be good at something. I do good D&D campaigns. I'm a decent chef at my primary job. Hell I can sing a wee bit but...
None of that ever feels like its worth a damn. Who knows. This site might go up in flames someday and all my writing will have been a temporary phase to make people smile or touch themselves.
But that makes me feel alive.
When I wrote Moon Phased a long time ago that was gonna be it. Get my pony poon loving phase over and done. It wasn't though. I wrote another chapter then other stories. I wrote the failure Ministrations and almost gave up. It wasnt because you all hated the stories.
It was because I did.
Not that they were bad. Hell I will admit I role-play a lot of chapters in my head while I work just to get through the day because lets face it this reality kind of sucks.
Just. Thanks. Whatever it means to you faceless people that make me smile when I see nice comments or that all of my stories seem to get featured.
Thank you.
Honestly I don't know if I would have stuck around after my surgery if I wasnt writing romance. It gets lonely. You have a relationship where you fight and claw for years and when its over you feel like life should be over.
But its not. Not yet.
So please. Be patient with my bearded ass while I keep working on Second Time Around and BIE. Who knows maybe I will see some fanart someday.
You all are good people. Even the haters. I don't know what else I want to say. Just a teary guy pouring shit out there I might regret.
At least it feels like I'm showing the guy behind the mask. Maybe someday I can take it off.
Love to all of you. Hope you keep on enjoying my work because in the end its for me but mostly for you.
Kindest regards.
Silent Author AKA Timothy Mclaughlin.
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Nothin’ wrong with the name Tim.
As for writing...yea, I get that. I’m not a social person. I had a few friends but I don’t like going out and drinking, or bowling, or w/e it is the people I knew decided was cool. So I stopped talking to them. Interests no longer connect and all that. But I get something nice here. A bit of social interaction(enough for me, anyway) and the joy of seeing others enjoy my stories, be it for the adventure, the lore-building, or the smut(I think the readers of Twisted are broken 50-50 between those last two
).
So keep being awesome, and never stop writing. Because when you stop writing you stop improving. And when you stop improving, you’ve given up your creativity.
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A+ would read again