Combat PTSD, a Marine Veterans' Life Unraveled & MLP?

I feel silly here, well I did until I Googled "MLP and PTSD"... I was a bit surprised and a little excited to see so many results. I of course wish none of us(those with PTSD and other Mental Health problems who found solace in a cartoon about ponies) had this at all. I have alot to say on the matter however find myself unable to write right now(a lack of time and a surplus of painful hands). I do want to just express how awesome it is that there is others, it's very typical for me to feel alone, even when surrounded by family or friends... sadly i dont have them around any more, self isolation, shame, lack of or difficulties communicating and also issues with their frustrations, lack of knowledge and understanding, stigma, etc... and this weekend(today is sat.) I am pretty sure my girlfriend has had it too. this has been my longest triggered period of symptoms(a year at max and about half or so a year prior at about 60% or so) my whole world is crushed and torn, and for my first time ever, i have zero hope and for the past year i have been unable to see any sight or vision of a tomorrow for myself... i have been frightened and scared.. of myself. i would never hurt another, specially those i care for but i care so little if none at all for my self.